Rainbow Day

It’s a Rainbow Day!!!

My special day has arrived!

I celebrated it with my biological family and my family here at home and of course my Boo!

It was a wonderful day!

Boo, came up with a sweet birthday countdown on his facebook wall, which I found adorable. His surprises, came a wee bit early but I didn’t open the package and opted to open it today! (eventhough, I was excited and itching to really open it).

And when I did… ta-da! I got not only one card.. but two!! And a sweet amethyst necklace. It was absolutely one of the sweetest things I got from my Boo! I couldn’t help but blush and just bask underneath his love rays as he beamed and blushed from receiving my response. I couldn’t help but notice his excitement, to which I really find endearing and sweet. I feel like twirling around in a field of daisies or maybe lavenders and then capping it off by sharing a sweet wine with him! How does it get any better than this?

He, also took his time off from work, to which I told him it’s not necessary, we will just find time, but he insisted he wants to spend his time with me, after finding out I did not plan to have a party at all. He also cooked chicken tocino for breakfast, because that was what I was having and cooked an impromptu spaghetti to wish me fun filled long life! We watched 3 idiots together! Another one of my wish list with him! So one down, and many more to go! *winks @ boo* It was not a good idea to watch a foreign film while we are apart, because I can’t make “kulit” since we have to pay attention to the subtitles or otherwise we’d miss parts of the movie! Nevertheless, it was lovely.

During dinnertime, I spent it with my family. The two kids at home were absolutely adorable. Jesse, woke me up and hugged me to wish a Happy Birthday. KZ, gave me her blue guitar keychain. It was sweet! Darlene also came home even though she has her pre-board tomorrow. I really appreciated her effort. She’s the best sister ever!

My phone and facebook wall were filled with well-wishes to those who remembered. I did not ask for my birthday to be alerted when it comes. But, I still enjoyed a few wall posts from friends who remembered. I loved all of it.

I am just thankful for this day. Thankful for God, for the moments and days I spend and the gift called- Life. I am excited for another wonderful year of living life with Love and Light. Always choosing kindness. Even though, there are times I stumble, I procrastinate, going through bad days, releasing my dark side, it’s not perfect…. but I am in the process of simply unveiling what God has given me.

I am also thankful with my family, who has always been there for me and who supports me in my Highest Good and for my own Well-Being. For my Boo, who told me in his sweet way, that he will be with me through my ups and downs and in the many years ahead. That was the sweetest you’ve said sweetheart! For my Ilawod Family, who continue to help light my flame and inspire me. For my DXN Friends, I am Maria, Readers Council, Mission Family, Childhood friends, High school buds, and College chums…. Thank you for staying with me and inspiring me. And to the people that irks me… thank you for always keeping me in check and in balance. You have helped me grown a lot!

So.. Cheers!!

All of life comes to me with ease and joy and glory.

Rainbows and roses,

Liberty

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Infinite Love and Abundance 2015

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This year is a year of Infinite Love and Abundance!

This year I choose to love myself more…. by loving myself more I give more authentic love of me to others….

This year I choose to focus on things that I love to do….

This year is a year of new ideas being brought to life and dreams made manifest!

This year i choose to be victorious and really fulfilling my LEAP award: I SOAR!

This year, I choose to take the small steps necessary to bring me closer to what I truly desire… (you know this boo!!!)

This year, I choose to celebrate life and love with my BOO!!!

I choose to harvest millions and more!!! *excited*

I choose to create more wonderful cherished fun love filled moments with my family, friends and BOO!!!!

I choose to make more healthy choices, be it in rest and in eating well… and keeping my body fit! *hulahoops, trampoline… jogging, yoga and dancing*

I choose to BE-ing more… being love, joyful, excited, compassionate, vibrant,enchanting, creative, beautiful, elegant, classy, more present and aware and evolved…

I choose to fill my gratitude jar!

I choose to write more….

I choose to be more trusting and to let go of things i cannot control…..

I choose to be guided by God all the time, with the support of the angels to do my life’s purpose and let my light shine….

I choose to embrace Life and Have FUN and waltz through the joys of life with integrity, grace, charm and humor!

I choose to be more creative and enjoy the wonderful rhythm of life and love!! I choose to be more fun-loving, beautiful, and wise Maria, inspiring many Maria’s to create a fabulous life!

I choose to continue to be a blessing and an inspiration to others… to be an assertive earth angel and to always always act in love..

I choose to be more kind to other people….. because kindness is Love with its workboots on!

This year, I choose to dance to the beat of my dreams by unleashing more of my God given talents….

I choose to be more patient…. awaiting and trusting God’s perfect Divine Time… to be in the right place.. at the right moment and always at the right time in all areas of my life because everything that we treasure most are the ones we wait for!

I choose to take care of my SHAPE: Spiritual gifts, Heart, Abilities, Personality and Experiences.

I choose to make positive changes to help/support the transformation of Philippines by buying more local products and supporting and promoting goods and companies.

I choose to continue to be a good daughter, caring sister, trusted friend, generous and abundant business partner and a loving partner to my booloved I choose to travel with my boo.. *blushes*

I choose to experience and enjoy God’s blessings… and being a blessing..

This year, I choose to celebrate God’s abundance, more enchanted moments with my boo, more laughter and fun-times with my friends and family, and yes ….. more magical kisses please….

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Sitting with Pain

One sunny morning, I saw Pain sitting on a bench.. all alone. He was staring into the horizon. I felt pain as I was watching him from afar.

My mind told me to ignore pain, my body told me to kill it… but my heart… surprisingly told me… to approach… Pain.

It was a constant battle. And it left me….. wanting to numb myself from pain. But, then there’s a voice deep inside the recess of my soul telling me: “Go… approach pain… learn from him. He is a friend. Don’t make him suffer.”

And so, I started to proceed with caution… on my first step towards pain.. I felt it trying to rip my heart out…. on my second step.. i felt pain.. and a lump in my throat wanting to vomit my heart out.

I stopped momentarily to catch my breath. Hesitating… wanting to go back to my comfort zone.. where I can feel pain.. but barely.

There’s a list to masks of comfort if i took five steps backward, there’s chocolate, music, vanilla ice cream, strawberry milkshakes, choco warm cups, alcohol, parties, movies or books that can make your heart give a sorry excuse for tears to flow out… and the list goes on and on.

I took another deep breath, as I battle between wanting to approach pain… or avoiding it.

And I took the unimaginable….. I took another step towards Pain. And a scream came out of my mouth…. I tried to muffle it… but there are no pillows to drown the sound.. and tears came flooding…. my walls are breaking….

“You can’t do it. You’ll die if you go any further”, says the body.

“It’s unwise to muddle closely to pain… look! You are a mess!” says the mind.

“Just go… feel the pain.. take another step…. and you will see….”, says the heart.

With a dose of courage, this time, I ignored the body and the mind and listened to my heart.

I took my fourth step…. *hiccups* as my screams stopped… and my crying slowly came to an end…. *sniff sniff*

My heart told me to take a deep breath…. *inhales and exhales*…. I began to calm down. There’s silence…..

I took my fifth step… and I came face to face with Pain.

And he looked up at me… with a broken smile.

“Hello there, my friend. I thought you’d give up at the third step…….”, Pain said.

“I was about to…..” I replied.

“Come, sit beside me.” He said, and gestured to a space beside him in the bench.

I settled down. We were both silent for awhile watching the horizon. Each consumed in our magical space.

Breaking the silence…. I asked…. “Why, do we need to feel pain? It is very excruciating!!”

“Am I?” He inquired with a grin.

“Yes, you are!” I replied. “I felt you… it makes me want to eject my heart… it makes me scream… it…” my voice trailed on…

“You need to feel those…. because I bring a message to you. If you experience me… then there’s a message.” Pain answered.

“What message is that?” I asked.

“What do you think? Why do you experience me?” He asked back. “Maybe, you should try to look back…. to moments as to whenever you feel pain.. and what’s the reason behind it…”

I looked back and tried to remember. “I feel pain… when I feel I’m not loved. Or someone betrayed me. Or I was vulnerable and then someone would unconsciously hurt me…whenever I am.. rejected…when i experience loss… shame… guilt…. fear….when i am being asked to go away….”

“Yes, and there’s a message I am bringing…”, Pain agreed. “Can’t you see that in all those moments, you are experiencing fear instead of love? I arrive, to remind you… about love.”

“Love? But, I feel pain!” I stressed out.

“Exactly! You feel me, because in those moments… you have abandoned love. You left it’s threshold. I don’t stem from the love that others have denied you….but rather from the love that you deny them.” Pain explained

“The love that I have denied them? But, it is them that denied me!”, I stated

“Yes. They denied you. But, it is your own denial of love… that hurts you most. But, you won’t experience pain…. when you go back to Love. That their actions are merely a call for love. When you took the fourth step, you forgot about what you have been denied, you also forgot how to mask the hurt that you are feeling… but you entered the place of clarity. The space in between pain, when you pause for a moment. When the mind shuts down, when you get past pain…. you enter that “pause”. And everything becomes clear. And that you were sure that you loved. And as you start to love…. you release me. We release one another.” Pain answered.

“Yes, I can remember moments that I am comforted in between the pain. But, how come I cannot stay there?… when my mind wakes up… I panic!” I admitted exhausted.

“It is a constant battle, yes.And always with the mind, and your emotions. But emotions are fleeting… and not permanent. But, that would make you stronger if you stop numbing me. When you suffer…. I suffer… and then your most basic reaction is to numb me. Some with the help of drugs, others by barking and projecting their anger on other people. The worst? Is never allowing yourself to feel vulnerable. Or to stop loving. To vow to never let another enter your heart. Denial of Love.” – Pain explained. “But, remember? Before a caterpillar becomes a butterfly? It has to reject all the old worm cells that would keep her from being a butterfly. There’s always a battle. Chaos. Conflict. But, then when you get through the fire….. you gain access to my wisdom…. like now.”

“My mind cannot fathom why such Love could be denied…. but my heart can sense… that it is so…and that sometimes things has to happen this way.. and that I and I alone can release the pain… regardless of whether the story continues, ends or begins the way I want it to.. ” I reflected.

“Uh-huh. Now, you are getting it. Slowly.” Pain agreed. “There are many things you can learn from me. ANd one is the beauty of uncertainty. And to let go of control when you love… and to release all expectations.. .and just Be Love. to your partner… specially to yourself. That’s the best gift.”

I took a deep breath. Relieved. Having this tiny moment of clarity. I chose to write my conversation… because should I experience Pain again… I can be reminded… that Pain is a friend… and one needs to set Pain free… so I can freely love..and that pain need not suffer.

“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.” – Mother Teresa

And once you enter the threshold of pain….. you actually realize that behind it is Love….

“I want to know if you’ve touched the center of your own sorrow, if you’ve been opened by life’s betrayals, or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.” Oriah Mountain Dreamer

I guess what I just did… was being in touch with the center of my sorrow and pain….

and when I surrendered to Love….

“Something amazing happens when we surrender and just love. We melt into another world, a realm of power already within us. The world changes when we change. the world softens when we soften. The world loves us when we choose to love the world.”- Marianne Williamson

 

And having the realizations I have…. I turned towards Pain and uttered:

“Hey…”

But, when I glanced beside me…. Pain was disappearing… slowly dissolving… as it gave me a warm smile…. Just before vanishing… Pain pointed towards the horizon….and before Pain disappeared… I smiled and said: “Thanks”

Tears fell from my eyes… grateful. Liquid prayers. And when I looked towards the horizon… I saw the rainbow.

And it’s a signal of hope, love and promises fulfilled….

May Love and Hope be yours.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Blessed in Receiving

A week ago, I learned a very important lesson in Receiving.

I was on our HQ talking to our business developers, when the Service Center Operations Manager told me to talk to a customer who wants to buy Roselle at a discount price. They’re requesting to use my number instead. Of course, I did the usual interview to make sure she wasn’t sent by another leader. And she said she doesn’t have any contact with the supplier and all that and we kept asking to have her number at least and she said she doesn’t know.

Clearly, this lead was being sent to me. Out of all people, why this time and why me?

In most cases, i would have given it to the leaders who may need it most but then i am reminded.. I am as worthy as them to receive and I shouldnt turn away providence… Because have I not been asking for this all along?

So while on conversation with Tita Tere… I was also having a conversation with myself and my response to receiving.

And that I should receive what has been given to me and not give it away.

At the same time, ive been receiving support from Boo when it comes to looking for a hospital in the vicinity. Normally, I would have fend off myself but it pays to listen to him(my angel) since he recommends the best and would never place myself on a very tight spot.

And earlier this week, I met a new found friend who asked me to guide her in her angel reading. She’s very enthusiastic, and  a giver like me. She prepared lunch and showed me her fantastic bamboo balcony with the awesome view of Mt. Apo! She then showered me with gifts. Huwaaaaa. She gave me some imported bubblegum, a sage and ordered a crystal necklace online. Awesome! I am blessed as I receive.

My whole life has been focused on giving that sometimes it stops there because I never allow myself to receive. And these moments are a stark reminder that I am now receiving God’s blessings in different forms.

August Rush!

It’s not the usual busy August I have the past few years…. but… it was filled with memorable days!

First off: Our Heart Circle Initiative with my mom is on the roll for the first quarter. There were challenges along the way, as facilitators. True. This role in the society is not easy but it is rewarding if one sees changes in the lives of the people that are being empowered. we are challenged to shorten our modules, and all that and find better, easier, gentle loving ways to effectively communicate… how we can have a world that works…. with no one left behind….tumblr_lrqfjjosqr1qi23vmo1_500

Secondly: Ive been meeting some of my friends… individually.. .and all are asking to have some kind of “Maria Gathering”. To talk about women and relationships… Huwaaa. as if im the go-to gal for that ano? Siguro sa women part I am. But, I did my fair share of studying and observing couples around…. and for it maybe I can support other ladies… to find their wholeness first.. and being happy with their own self first… before sharing their life with another 🙂 [and I’m about to do my mini debut.. haha with 4 lady friends muna… I wanted to keep it small.. for the moment… and we will play it by ear ] – August 27

Third: Ana is back! Wooot Woot! and always when she’s back… there’s always something cooking up for us ladies! And this time we finally visited this oldskul bar called Acropolis. and we danced with what ? 80’s music! Mwahahaha. It was one of the most fun nights I’ve had with my girlfriends! Haha. Sa uulitin!!

Fourth: Spending time with my family and watching movies as our bond is something to look forward too. Just don’t make me watch horror okay? I scream too much! Puhleaseee! :p

and Fifth: It has been an awesome month with my man! The best! We celebrated a milestone this month… and we approached it with our usual spontaneity! Ahhh, may we never lose that! We wade through our challenges really well.. and have learned how to do it together. In synch! Like peanut butter and jelly, strawberry ice cream and crepes, mangoes and grahams, pancakes and butter… okay .. now Im hungry!!! And I’ve noticed.. our usual “tampuhan moments” are shorter… which is a progress and we can catch ourselves in between… and forgive right away! Ahhhh. The best ka talaga, Love! *hugs* *blows kisses*

Grateful.Always grateful for everything that has been happening! 🙂

Gift of Faith

“Faith in the future puts all things within reach” – anonymous

Congratulations to my Beloved Sister!!!

You made it!

It wasn’t a surprise… I knew you’d make it. You always do!

I know the journey wasn’t easy, you had gruelling exams and quizzes that you dread. And those make-up exams! Migahd they’d rack anybody’s nerves. And sometimes trigger your asthma. But, you persevered.

There were countless of sleepovers, mom made you watch movies in the cinemas to take a breather every after exams… You gave up a lot of beach outings and trips.. cause you want to stay home and study….

And it all paid off.

Know that you are on the path to your destiny… It may not be the road we expect… but it sure is a step .. A step closer to what you are meant to do in this world.

You heard Ninang aka Kuya Atho… It is sealed.. All that is left is the work to follow that path.. And yes, there will be bumps and roadblocks… thats all part of the journey but you know.. There are roses and birds too and double rainbows to boot!

You are a powerful, courageous and loving woman! Shine! 🙂

I may not be cheerful and bubbly at all times with you.. but I cherish and I hold you dearly in my heart litol sister!

You sure deserve all the good that comes your way!!!

I love you!

And yes, you may watch korean movies to your heart’s content na! Hihihi

Yeah yeah i know. Theres another review coming up… But, well .. Know that we got your back and we are sending and giving you our love and prayers.

May you always have faith, because with the gift of Faith… You have the strength, the perseverance and the courage to shine your light and enjoy your life to the fullest and making your dreams a reality!

Congratulations!

Love,

Ate

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birthing a new era

we are still here. alive and kickin`! not, that i was expecting something as large as an ice age or meteor falling or aliens beaming us up to godknowswhere.

I guess the lightworkers did their job well! *cheers* There were simultaneous global meditation happening at 11:11 GMT and other events creat

ing good vibes… and well.. wadaaaaa. keep the good vibes steady, everyone! We need that in this new era/dimension. 🙂

that was one gentle re-birth. mmmmm… but… the birthing is still going on! at least, the purification stage is way past it.. and we are ready to welcome the Light. Truth. Love. Cooperation. Kindness. Joy. Peace. Creativity. Abundance.

Of course, there will be battles as the old struggles to hang on, but then… love and light will totally melt them away.. or transmute them.

Yesterday, we celebrated it… in our community. We invited different people of different religious backgrounds and beliefs, advocacies, culture… and all from different fields too.

It was fun.

There were singing, dancing, laughing and some cryin`….

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A select few gave out their vision…. for the coming generations. I was one of them. I gave out my vision for the youth. 🙂 There were visions for government, business, education, environment, natural farming, music & arts, spirituality, peace, and the mindanao agenda….

we also placed our wishes… on a wishing tree for our families and the world….

we also gave gifts and greeted each other Happy Birthday! (yeah, that may seem weird.. but we are just doing what we know best… to transcend and include… for the coming cycle…. another 5,126 years again? wooohoo!)

I am just blessed to be born at such a time as this…. i guess in a way,… my soul waited for this event.

exciting days ahead!!! 🙂

btw, check out my guest post on Denoy’s blog: Friends