Where did that girl go?



Hahaha I find myself the most bitter of all women lately.

If someone asks me if I am married, I cant help but answer: That’s not uso anymore. People will still break up. 

Or worse I end up saying in my thoughts: Mangamatay ra tang tanan ( we will all die anyway).

Haha sometimes, I answer: Most guys like guys too anyway! And they are prettier! Hahaha

It is so funny. I cannot bring myself to be over the moon or kilig. It is gone. I dont know if this is a phase. But, it is gone. 

I find enchanment in life… but not in romance. Not just in romance.  

romantic life =enchanting life is not really limited to that

It goes beyond that. My life ever since I asked God to take the helm (yes, I have surrendered everything to Him. And it has brought about many results that I have enjoyed and never dreamed of but i thourougly enjoyed it… to the point that I told God, if its not for me… spare me.) 

So, yeah. 

It is not a lack of amore or guys its more of the lack of need of it. And really learning to be resilient on my own. 

I guess ive placed boundaries… because I can sense my own resentment.. but, what I wish is that one day.. there will be none of that resentment.. but the silent acceptance of what is. 

And it is what it is.

We will all die anyway 😜😜😜


It can be so difficult when someone we are in relationship with decides that they need to separate in order to find themselves. This is not to be taken personally. Some can clarify who they are while in the heart of relationship, but not everyone can. Some really do need to separate in order to find their individual identity. They need the space to explore, to clarify, to integrate their realizations. They simply aren’t ready to deal with another person’s energy and issues. 
As long as it’s not an avoidant flight from intimacy, this can be a very positive decision. Individuation is an essential step on the road to a sustainable relationship. If they are not at peace with their individual path, they will not be healthy, attuned partners. 
At the same time, one should not put their life on hold waiting for them. The fact is, they may never return, and, even if they do, you have no way of knowing who they will be then. You fell in love with who they were at a moment in time—but that moment has passed. They are uncovering a new identity now. Extend that offering to yourself as well. Move on from them and see where the river takes you, too. (~an excerpt from ‘Spiritual Graffiti’)