I may not be around because my presence is not helping you anymore….. but Im sending you waves of love from my end.
Ill always be here for you when you need someone to support you.
I love you always.
I may not be around because my presence is not helping you anymore….. but Im sending you waves of love from my end.
Ill always be here for you when you need someone to support you.
I love you always.
2015 was a bit of a challenge for me, in all ways. It tested me to the point it left me stunted, a bit depressed, unwilling to move. I wanted to. But, by the middle of it, I wanted to design my life and re-create it, but I could not get myself to do it. I tried being hard on myself, tried wallowing in self pity, being madrama, I tried to feel every moment. It left me scarred. But, I know the light is still glimmering. There are moments of love and laughter amidst everything. But, there were also moments of despair.
I am still refining what I really wanted in my life. One thing is for sure, I want to raise my own family and become the best wife and mother that I can be. But, that couldn’t happen if I am not ready, nor if my future partner in life is also ready. That is the one thing I am sure of.
But, other than that? Career path? Doing my life’s work?I have devoted myself to journey with every person I meet that I will be one of their supporters in their journey back to Love. Little did I know, I shall be also in the flow of it. It was a constant dance, away from Love, and going back to Love.
What transpired the last months of the year 2015 is the realization that: Anything could happen. IN the blink of an eye, God can come and take you away. Whether you’ve done your life’s work or not. No matter how hard you bargain. Also, it is with God’s grace that you live. And how would you choose to live today.
I am suddenly remembered by a statement of Sister Fidelis, that in the after life, God won’t ask us how many projects we’ve done for the world, or how many people we helped…. but God will only ask us one question: HOW WELL DID YOU LOVE?
Did you love wholeheartedly? Or did you hold back? Did you stop loving because you feared? Or you just tried to numb yourself.
I shall always always remember that statement. And of course it is a good match with: You never lose by LOVING.
Of course, there are moments that it is challenging to practice that Love. Because, my ego mind loves to interfere, but I’m doing my very best to be friends with my ego … although there are my moments that I hate how I react to such things… such as… being selosa, being irritable or cranky, unable to take a joke, pikon and a whole lot of things.
All I ask always, is the guidance from the Divine…. and to SURRENDER all my need to control. 🙂
Lord, I surrender all my burdens and worries to you. I know you have always taken care of me, my family, my boo and friends. May I recognize the miracle in everyday, and to always just choose Love.
*sigh* I miss my dad so much, that it brings me tears at night whenever I remember him. It was always my dream for my dad to see his apo’s and his son-in-law one day. No, he didn’t even catch a glimpse of him. 😦 But, my dad despite his lack of words, showed us in his own way, how not to be judgmental. You can always be you and well he’d be mad but he was never one to keep grudges. T_T He was the best example of unconditional love and BEING-ness. Having him around and just hearing you talk.
It was also this year I experienced how to receive support and help from other people. After Papa left…. a lot of people were there and supported us every step of the way. Thank you dear Lord, for never leaving our side. They were there when we need them the most. 🙂
After dad’s death, I was unable to bring myself to write in my Happiness Jar… but here is what I came up with:
Jan 1: Spent time with family. Grateful for the first day of 2015. Wonderful Weather. Healthy Family. The gift of Silence. Me time. Peace. Released. Calm. Love. Boo is crusing and is out of reach, and the angels gave me a card reading today that said: “Your Loved Ones are Safe”. I am assured Boo is safe and sound. 🙂
Jan 2: Today I am grateful that I have an energy exchange from Mom. A family of three also visited the center today and bought 40k worth of products after the health reading! I see this as a sign of things to come!! How does it get any better than this?
Jan 3: GRATEFUL for today! I finally heard from BOO but didnt caught up with him just yet! But happy that he sounds fine… and found a moment to steal some wifi access.
Jan 8: Met Avy and Nessa and did card readings for them. Grateful that a lady inquired in the middle and asked to have hers read soon.
Jan 14: Thankful for my first BEHT client today!! How does it get any better than this?
Jan 21: put your ear down by your HEART and Listen Hard.
Jan 22: Wow! I received my Php 1,350 today from my 3 clients in BEHT! How does it get any better than this?
Jan 27: Today is a happy day with MichaelBoo. I really enjoyed making lambing to him. I love it!! We talked about calls, love, marriage.. tennis, and *wink wink*.
Jan 28: Tribe of Love @ our home, so papa can join in on us and see us meeting. Full house with lots of food. I made the beef tapa today! Woot woot!
feb 4: Its a full moon and we had our MasterMind @ Bahay Kubo.. The Avila’s place. I imagined that I was with Boo and we are together dancing underneath the moonlight! What a day! Today we watched the Shift with the community. “Just be there… Pay attention… .and Magic happens…” =)
Feb 5 2015: Huwaw! Boo’s card arrived today! Happiness! Can’t open it pa! Today I also went to the dentist and it is a win that I’m over my fear of dentists, Mom need not accompany me! I also had a date with Ate Ana @ the Echo Store. I am blessed today!
Feb 9: Today I went out with my Papa. He often loves to join us when we go out of the home. Today, he was game enough to accompany me with my errands. We went to Ate Gyne’s to fetch the Kangen, hatid Paolo at school. and then I visited the post office to follow up on my package, and then I dropped by at a surplus shop where I found an MK bag I have always wanted. Then, I urged my dad to come down and take a look inside since there’s not much people anyway. And he went to the slippers area. He loves slippers! And then I bought the bag and my papa was grinning and wanted a red slipper…. so, I told him sure!! I will get that for you of course! And then I wanted to give my Papa a treat and told him: You want to eat the ice cream Pope ate at the aircraft that is made in the Philippines? And he said: Sure! And so, I bought him the strawberry flavored to which he shared with mom and me at home. 🙂 One of the best days with my Papa. 🙂
Feb13: Boo gave me a sweet amethyst necklace. 2 cards. And he cooked the same breakfast I had today. And even made me spaghetti!!! He is the sweetest! And he took a day off!!! *blushes* We watched 3 idiots. My family was also complete for the dinner!!! Best!
Feb 14: How does it get any better than this? Boo gave me a bouquet of flowers and our third BOOBABY!! Boobwhit is the name! So kyootipay!! Lovely lovely flowers. *blushes* Although he got sick today 😦 But he did his best to be with me…. *hugsBooTight*
Feb 15: Happy Birthday Darlene!!!
Feb 18: Papas Birthday! we had Lamb today!! For Papa! And everyone in the Tribe of Love was present. It was a full house full of fun and laughter. And they sang the Old Lang Syne to my Papa. Good thing I recorded that one!
March 18: While traveling, and waiting for our Bacolod flight in Cebu, Tito Devin and Tita Letty fetched us and took us for lunch at Casa Verde one of the oldest restaurants they have. They have the most generous family in Cebu I know!
March 26: Mom wanted a celebration at home. I bought mom a luggage!! Since she always wanted to have one that is not too large or too small. Papa, also took me on the side the other day and asked me to buy white and pink stargazers for mom as his gift (sweeet!!) (aside from mom’s shopping spree for the day!). It is also their Wedding Anniversary. And they celebrated it with just as and the rest of our household. 🙂
April 27: God gave us an angel in the form of Tita Angie who accompanied us at Camp Aguinaldo, even though it is her birthday today. 🙂
July 28: Happy Birthday Paolooo!!
Sept 24: Happy Birthday Boooo!!
Oct 13: Boo reminded that its my favorite day today and we watched: The Croods and Inside Out!!! Best day ever! As always with Boo.
Oct. 16-17 2015: *made **** today with Boo 😛 in Tagalog. Haha. Stayed up till 12:49 am that;s3:49am. He shared me stories and it was an intimate and loving conversation. I felt so loved.
Nov9 2015: watched 3 movies today with Boo: The Maze Runner, The American President and Beetlejuice. It was lovely. He is the best with Quality Time!!! *hugshugs* I miss Papa though.. I still think fondly of him.
dec 21: Im like a princess or Miss Universe… being crowned today!! Becauseeeee right after the Miss Universe Pageant, a mail arrived from my Boo… huwaaaaa… and I got a CATS beanie! I did not expect that!!! OMG I was so surprised. My Boo sure is supported with the angels and his Timing!
In a nutshell and milestones of 2015:
TSULITTEAM: Lovely days, he makes breakfast for me, waking him up in the morning, making breakfast for him, accompanies me during events, ensures that I get home safely, takes care of me, on moments he sleeps on mewhenever we watch dark movies, celebrated our 3rd year since the day we first met, celebrated our 2nd year in YM and the beginning of our journey together as TsulitTeam, watches movies and series with me, cuddling, supporting one another, listening and understanding one another, loving and just loving……
Movies: How To Train Your Dragon, Call Center Girl, Pirates of The Carribean ON stranger Tides, Addicted, The Visit,
Series watched with Boo: Game of Thrones, Scandal
Travels: Zamboanga City, Cebu City, Cagayan De Oro City(2), Pagadian City, Cadiz City, Metro Manila(4), Batangas City. Samal, Ozamis City, Iligan City(2), Butuan City, Sta. Maria (Little Boracay), Baguio City, Santiago (Isabela) (2), Rizal(2), Tagum City, Bat Cave and Vanishing Island – Samal, Cavite City(2), Urdaneta City, Balanga, Bataan, Laguna,
Workshops Conducted: Heart of Networking: 7 Heart of a Leader: 8 5 Love Languages: 1 MasterMind Workshop: 1
Workshops Staffed: Ikepono: One weekend
Workshops Attended: Enneagram With Sister Fidelis
Ate Something New: Satti (as recommended by Boo),
Weddings Attended: 3
BIG EVENT: Hosted @ MOA ARENA 🙂 with 3K people 🙂
Eventss Supported: Philippine Eagle Family Day, Prosperity Consciousness Day, Cycle for Life (registration), A day to Change the World, Bazaar for A Cause, Tribute of Tito Leo (registration)
Angels met: RC, Ate Grace, Ate Kathy, Kuya Chad Laurente, Cristina, Shrijaya,
My Angels and Crystals Online Shop was also born during the bazaar last August 13, 2015 🙂
Mutant Academy School of Ninja Turtles was also born August 2015
I wasn’t able to document that much this year…. however I wished to document more this coming year…. 🙂
It’s a Rainbow Day!!!
My special day has arrived!
I celebrated it with my biological family and my family here at home and of course my Boo!
It was a wonderful day!
Boo, came up with a sweet birthday countdown on his facebook wall, which I found adorable. His surprises, came a wee bit early but I didn’t open the package and opted to open it today! (eventhough, I was excited and itching to really open it).
And when I did… ta-da! I got not only one card.. but two!! And a sweet amethyst necklace. It was absolutely one of the sweetest things I got from my Boo! I couldn’t help but blush and just bask underneath his love rays as he beamed and blushed from receiving my response. I couldn’t help but notice his excitement, to which I really find endearing and sweet. I feel like twirling around in a field of daisies or maybe lavenders and then capping it off by sharing a sweet wine with him! How does it get any better than this?
He, also took his time off from work, to which I told him it’s not necessary, we will just find time, but he insisted he wants to spend his time with me, after finding out I did not plan to have a party at all. He also cooked chicken tocino for breakfast, because that was what I was having and cooked an impromptu spaghetti to wish me fun filled long life! We watched 3 idiots together! Another one of my wish list with him! So one down, and many more to go! *winks @ boo* It was not a good idea to watch a foreign film while we are apart, because I can’t make “kulit” since we have to pay attention to the subtitles or otherwise we’d miss parts of the movie! Nevertheless, it was lovely.
During dinnertime, I spent it with my family. The two kids at home were absolutely adorable. Jesse, woke me up and hugged me to wish a Happy Birthday. KZ, gave me her blue guitar keychain. It was sweet! Darlene also came home even though she has her pre-board tomorrow. I really appreciated her effort. She’s the best sister ever!
My phone and facebook wall were filled with well-wishes to those who remembered. I did not ask for my birthday to be alerted when it comes. But, I still enjoyed a few wall posts from friends who remembered. I loved all of it.
I am just thankful for this day. Thankful for God, for the moments and days I spend and the gift called- Life. I am excited for another wonderful year of living life with Love and Light. Always choosing kindness. Even though, there are times I stumble, I procrastinate, going through bad days, releasing my dark side, it’s not perfect…. but I am in the process of simply unveiling what God has given me.
I am also thankful with my family, who has always been there for me and who supports me in my Highest Good and for my own Well-Being. For my Boo, who told me in his sweet way, that he will be with me through my ups and downs and in the many years ahead. That was the sweetest you’ve said sweetheart! For my Ilawod Family, who continue to help light my flame and inspire me. For my DXN Friends, I am Maria, Readers Council, Mission Family, Childhood friends, High school buds, and College chums…. Thank you for staying with me and inspiring me. And to the people that irks me… thank you for always keeping me in check and in balance. You have helped me grown a lot!
All of life comes to me with ease and joy and glory.
Rainbows and roses,
Yahooo! Finally! I heard from boo after what seems to be ages! 😊☺️😊☺️😍😍😍 At around 4 in the morning i heard my phone and for awhile there i thought it was just a dream and I kept imagining i answered it and it turned out I wasn’t and it kept ringing and good thing i really woke up and checked it out…. And it was boo!!!
I was just so happy i want to jump out and hug him right away!!!!! Ahhh i miss him na talaga!
And then he followed up a bit about his Christmas card to me which up to now did not arrived, but i told him I’m hoping it would arrive … In fact, i was very confident it would since I asked the angels….
Anyway, we conversed a bit until one of our connections failed.. i think it was on my end.. I was waiting for his reply since he said: “wait” and when he finally did… It came in late on my end and when i was about to respond my phone lagged and i had to work my way to get logged in again 😭😭😭
A little while after, knowing he prolly lost his signal along the way… Someone from home knocked on my door and said: There’s a letter for you!
And i replied: From?
She said: Im not sure, but I think this may be the one you’ve been waiting for!
And like a kid scrambling for her Christmas present on a Christmas day I jumped up and grabbed it with a: thank youuuu!!
And ta-daaaa! It was his Christmas Card for me! 😍😍😍 with a special bonus! It was just so sweet and thoughtful of him. I knew about the letter but not the bonus. 😇💏
Archangel Gabriel!!! Thank you so much! 😊☺️
Also, today, a couple friend dropped in on our home and just hang out and spent time with dad and mum and me. So, we were sharing about life, money, the things we are going thru, the world, family, friendship…
It was a wonderful time. 😊☺️
All in all, my day turned out really lovely. I told my boo, he sure made my day better! 😍
I can’t wait for him to go home naaa and back to unlimited chika! Ahihihihi ooops i heard an “uh oh” from him somewhere out in the Tasman Sea! Ahihihihi 🐨🐼💏
This year is a year of Infinite Love and Abundance!
This year I choose to love myself more…. by loving myself more I give more authentic love of me to others….
This year I choose to focus on things that I love to do….
This year is a year of new ideas being brought to life and dreams made manifest!
This year i choose to be victorious and really fulfilling my LEAP award: I SOAR!
This year, I choose to take the small steps necessary to bring me closer to what I truly desire… (you know this boo!!!)
This year, I choose to celebrate life and love with my BOO!!!
I choose to harvest millions and more!!! *excited*
I choose to create more wonderful cherished fun love filled moments with my family, friends and BOO!!!!
I choose to make more healthy choices, be it in rest and in eating well… and keeping my body fit! *hulahoops, trampoline… jogging, yoga and dancing*
I choose to BE-ing more… being love, joyful, excited, compassionate, vibrant,enchanting, creative, beautiful, elegant, classy, more present and aware and evolved…
I choose to fill my gratitude jar!
I choose to write more….
I choose to be more trusting and to let go of things i cannot control…..
I choose to be guided by God all the time, with the support of the angels to do my life’s purpose and let my light shine….
I choose to embrace Life and Have FUN and waltz through the joys of life with integrity, grace, charm and humor!
I choose to be more creative and enjoy the wonderful rhythm of life and love!! I choose to be more fun-loving, beautiful, and wise Maria, inspiring many Maria’s to create a fabulous life!
I choose to continue to be a blessing and an inspiration to others… to be an assertive earth angel and to always always act in love..
I choose to be more kind to other people….. because kindness is Love with its workboots on!
This year, I choose to dance to the beat of my dreams by unleashing more of my God given talents….
I choose to be more patient…. awaiting and trusting God’s perfect Divine Time… to be in the right place.. at the right moment and always at the right time in all areas of my life because everything that we treasure most are the ones we wait for!
I choose to take care of my SHAPE: Spiritual gifts, Heart, Abilities, Personality and Experiences.
I choose to make positive changes to help/support the transformation of Philippines by buying more local products and supporting and promoting goods and companies.
I choose to continue to be a good daughter, caring sister, trusted friend, generous and abundant business partner and a loving partner to my booloved I choose to travel with my boo.. *blushes*
I choose to experience and enjoy God’s blessings… and being a blessing..
This year, I choose to celebrate God’s abundance, more enchanted moments with my boo, more laughter and fun-times with my friends and family, and yes ….. more magical kisses please….
2014 has been very good. I can say I have begun to shed off things I deem not my priority and began to really pick up areas in my life I want to focus on. (My declarations really paid off: Pure Bliss 2014)
Primarily, I have been cherishing one of God’s greatest gift to me: Boo. I know, he has been the talk of the year in my blog, because it’s an area I have been holding back for most of my life. But, with him, I feel I am ready. And with that, everything is just happening in God’s perfect time. I have grown a lot, he showed me in so many ways areas of me that I have masked. And if i have to enumerate them, I may just cry! I have also encountered areas of me that did not grow up and very much “madrama”. In the end, I learned how to balance being me… (and part of that is still madrama sweetheart!)… and how to express it in a healthy way. I thought, I’d be spending my holidays with my boo, but I guess its not yet the time. (Miracles take some timeeee!) In fact, he is not with me today! He is off somewhere on a vacay… T_T But, it’s alright. We have chosen to just go gaze at the moon when the clock strikes 12. Oh please weather be good! I miss him. It was also this year that I got my first ever bouquet from a guy!!!(and from boo pa!!!) *soooooo kilig* And i got two babies: Boobear and Boocholit!!! This year also we had our first year anniversary as TsulitTeam! ❤ and our 2nd year anniversary since the day we met! It was also my first time to cook up a birthday surprise to someone I love! It was funnnn!!!! ❤
Family….. this year brought us closer together with all that has been happening. It has been a sweet, meaningful, intimate Christmas with just us and the whole household celebrating. We also gained a new addition to the family: Woody! Who also gave us a scare for a good five days because he got lotst. Good thing the angels brought him back!! he is the yin to our yang! Huwaaaa!!! He is absolutely friendly! Darlene alsooo got to travel with us! The best!
Our Community, has gone through a bump, which challenged beliefs and relationships.. and where we really stand in our mission to contribute to our community, city, Philippines, Asia and the world. I think this year was more of introspection… albeit all the events together… but different soulful journey to each and everyone.
A lot of friends came and a lot left town and out of the country.
This year was definitely filled with engagements! My facebook is flooded with feeds of rings on fingers. Which is a wonderful sign! That means, most of my friends are actually living their dreams. aside from all the celebrities that got engaged and married (one being my favorite… dong and marian. not because its hyped up like it is… but because of how their relationship really stood the test of time.) Also, the day they were engaged, they had a dinner at the same restaurant we were in… and it was another [insert twilight zone music here] affirmation. Affirmation, that everyone is gearing up for their next level in relationships.
At the beginning of the year… I did a financial timeline to my 5 cousins (young-uns) and I’m happy to see 2 of them are actually working on it as I write. And has been handling their finances creatively. I have also got reports and random messages about how they are grateful they have cleared up their liabilities and started to take on their savings.
I also experienced Bagyong Glenda…. in Manila, having my flight cancelled… and another one having my flight rebooked because of Bagyong Ruby.
It was also this year that I entered a dance club but only this time it was back to the 80’s themed! It was absolutely fun! I have my boo to thank for pushing me to enjoy! (Although, I would have preferred he was with me:P)
Also, this year Ate Honey commented I improved in my speaking/workshop craft! Whoopeee! More confident and a bit grown up whoopee! *somersaults*
It was my first to do yoga for almost 2 months. Usually, I do it intermittently. But, along the road it got lost and sooo once again… im bringing it back up on schedule.
I also got to catch up with Lola B, Kathy, Ate Grace whom I haven’t seen for ages!!!! It was refreshing to see them! Also caught up with other friends: Resh, Ate Riz, Ate Jolly, JV, Ana…. among others….
A lot of things happened that are of concern to me. First off, the planes that went missing, the plane crashes, it was a weird statistics this year. Also Vietnam noted it was a weird year of accidents too. I also learned a lot of things during my two trips. This time, I actually listened well in between my rest! The ongoing global unrest and want of greed and more power, and thus igniting wars.
Philippines on one hand, exposed a lot of corrupt individuals, even though there isn’t much, the fact that they are under public scrutiny is a big change already.
Despite this, there are many things to learn; that amidst all these chaos, one day there will be order. In between all the pain and heartbreaks, and challenges… your real power .. that which is within you… called Love.. will emerge… and then it will soar…
All in all, I am grateful for all the blessings, the insights, the loving memories, the challenges and the growth that came after this year.
Thank you for 2014. 🙂
Milestones of 2014:
TsulitTeam: TsulitTeam movie dates, spontaneous dates, mornings and midnight conversations, 1st TsulitTeam Anniversary, 2nd Anniversary (day we met)
Weddings: Paul & ate Krang
Heart Council Sessions: 10
Travels: Kidapawan: (3), Eden (2), Panabo (1), Manila (6), Cebu (1), South Korea (1), Vietnam (1)
Beach: 4 times lang??!!!
Workshops/ Training Conducted: Heart Quest batch 5, Stages of Courtship, Special Session: 7 Qualities of Master Achievers, Back to Base 6, Heart of Networking (4x), Success Mastery
New Friends: Churchille, Dana, Ish
Workshops Attended: Rich Dad Cashflow @ SM Lanang, Way of a Healer, Meet Your Angels Workshop, BARS
Ideas that were Rapid Prototyped: Coffee Party, Back to Base 6, Love Sessions with The Maria’s (Love Salon -I am Maria Session),
New Inaanaks: Baby Adi, Baby Tori,
Baby Shower: Fraiche