tita is such a gem. Always remembering and giving us sweet notes on our travels. Love love always po! ❤️ #throwback
tita is such a gem. Always remembering and giving us sweet notes on our travels. Love love always po! ❤️ #throwback
Early this week, it seemed like a wild dream has ended as Mayor Duterte chose to release an official statement that he is not running.
While I see this as one of his cunning strategies where he gets publicity minus the exorbitant fees media often asks of politicians, a lot of people were apparently dismayed.
A lot has messaged me expressing their disappointment. One even likened it to a breakup with a boyfriend. So, I told one of my friends… I will only cry if he doesn’t file at the last day. And if he doesn’t, we will all lament at Goat’s Eye together and get ourselves drunk. But, before that I am still 100% sure he is running.
At the onset that people has been pushing mayor to run, I believed his first ever: “No, I am not running.” Because, to us.. Mayor is a man who kept his word.
And if he says No, it is NO. If he says he will do something about it. He will do something about it. He is impeccable that way.
But then, I began doubting the statement as a strategy when he gives out clues that he may just run whenever he says: “If I were President…..” or “Being a President is Destiny…” and in the last few weeks: “Only Divine Intervention…”
And for the last 3 months, I knew all along. He was stringing the media and his opponents by saying No, while encouraging the people to ask him to run. Meanwhile, in my travels in Luzon and Visayas and parts of Mindanao. I often hear them wanting mayor to run and I assured everyone he will.
While many are disappointed that he keeps changing his mind. I understand Mayor Duterte’s position. Call it strategy or whatsoever. But that is the only way he has without needing that much fund to campaign. There are also impending danger that if he says it too early, a group may just decide to assassinate him! (okay, ive been watching too many movies). Or his opponents can prepare to assassinate his character by releasing issues that can mar his reputation. So, if he keeps saying NO, while giving out clues, he keeps the opponents guessing. Unable to move. And giving them no time until the last day to eliminate him. Because 3 months before the filing of candidacy should be the time you are given to eliminate your opponent by giving them issues. Poe had the citizenship issue, Roxas had the “paloy” effect that people does not like, and Binay’s case.
But, there could be an inner conflict. There are so many things to consider. One, he will be needing to leave Davao City to Mayor Inday Sara who refused until the end and stood her ground that she wanted a private life. Second, the lack of funds. While many expressed their support voluntarily and waived the fee (he even had billboards and advertisements all sponsored by his loving supporters without cost), it can be a problem. Because, he will be up against opponents with budgets that would range from 50Billion to 500 billion! Crazy, right? Third, the possibility of losing because the lack of machineries. I dont even know what that means but welll, its an open secret. And let’s continue to pretend it does not exist, can be an obstacle.
Anyway, whether Mayor Duterte decides to run or not. He has my respect. He does not owe our country anything. By asking him to run we also need to respect how he would weigh his decision. It is not easy to be the President. It’s the worst job in the world to people with good intentions, specially if you will be presiding over the Philippines. What can 6 years in office do? He can start a revolution, yes. But, it may take more than 6 years to achieve what we have today in Davao. It took him 27 years to build Davao the way it is now. It did not happen in an instant. From killing fields of the South to becoming the #2 Safest Place in the World.
It also took a city with people who believed in Davao and it’s people. It took discipline and cooperation and more than that… the vision to keep Davao peaceful and progressive and to attain a development that is sustainable.
If we ask him to run, I hope we don’t do it because we will have another scapegoat to blame our problems on. We as the citizens of the Philippines should also do our part, our initiative to keep our country attain sustainable development. We, should also recognize our responsibility. Because, change does not depend on one leader but by the efforts of the mass. Though, it is impossible to ask the mass not to complain and blame, I ask the leaders and the mutants of the country to keep doing your own effort, in your own city. No task is too small for it has a huge affect to the big picture.
Whether your field is in politics, environment, education, entertainment, spirituality, business among others, I ask that you hold a vision of our country. How do you see it, 20 years from now? What would our country be like? Keep your positive vision. Because, that is what made Davao City. It is the vision of the people and our leader that made the city the way it is now. It is not perfect. But, it has made a huge 360 degree change and is continuing to improve.
We are responsible for our country. Yan ang #TunayNaPagbabago
While we all believe that he is destined, what we can all ask for now is Divine Intervention.
Today, Mayor Sara gave everyone a ray of hope as she shaved her head and posted:
nagpa upaw nalang ko samtang naghulat #Duterte2016 #kalboparasapagbabago #NohairWecare bisan walay kwarta, bisan way makinarya, bisan mapildi #justDUit
“Nagpakalbo habang naghihintay #Duterte2016 #kalboparasapagbabago #NohairWecare kahit walang pera, kahit walang makinarya, kahit matalo #justDUit
And i heard the Councilors of Davao had their shaves head too.
For now, we wait.
A few days ago, one good friend of mine named Kuya Arjun messaged me with a photo of him, his son in low, and his grandson.
The place looked so foreign… With the ship at the back.. It cannot possibly be in Philippines!
He captioned it with: “thats me, my son in law named Michael and grandson. My son in law and daughter met in Rome. ”
I was momentarily confused and told him: “wow! You look so happy! I am happy for you. Wait, are you in the Philippines?”
And he said:” oh sorry! I forgot to tell you. I am now in Canada. I met the family of my daughter now as i attend their wedding. Im telling you this because it was after we talked and the angel guidance you did for me that gave me motivation to pursue my travel in Canada. Now, ill be here till December and ive got a visa til 2020.”
I was so happy to hear that he is finally with his family! For quiet sometime Kuya Arjun gave up his tshirt factory in Manila to live a monk life (an unspiring one at that)and devoting his life to the missions here in the Philippines.
However, his heart also longs to be with his family. When we met last February or Early March he was hesitant to apply for a Canadian visa. His cards and angel guides told him to pursue it. I was merely the mouthpiece of the angels.
And now! Months after he is finally in Canada with his grandson! And seeing that smile i am sure he is in bliss!
I am so blessed and inspired with his story…. and this goes to show that if there is intention and faith…nothing is impossible with the support of God and the angels.
This is also a story of the importance of family and the happiness we have when we are re-united with them. ❤️💕
This also inspired me to pursue the angrl guidance readings and keep supporting everyone i meet to their journey back to Love.
The past few weeks, i have been mulling over my direction.. an area of my life seems to be incommunicado 😭.. and suddenly i cannot see the way… I placed my dreams on his direction but now..Its like mists are covering it up and its becoming blurry… But, God has been telling me through people coming up to me and sharing to me their stories and successes to pursue this area..
There are moments i feel i am abandoned by someone i really trusted, however i should not lose hope because the one i have in me.. Who is Christ and Gods Love never ever abandoned me.
And to this I anchor my dreams and visions to Him.
All these for the glory of God. 💕💐🌈🌏
I don’t know how to begin this, but I feel I ought to write something.
I couldn’t even bear saying it…. but I have to… my Dad chose to go as soon as a little bit past 12midnight on April 6, 2015.
We were in the ICU but outside the room of my Dad when it happened…. and everything was just so unreal to me. But, I couldn’t say those aloud because my mom was being hysterical. It’s like when he was being revived…. i began to find ways that what was happening was unreal.
Until now, I can’t seem to believe it’s real. I still find myself crying whenever I’m alone… because I miss him.
But, I sense the loss whenever I go home. He would always be beside the piano, or in front of the tv, or beside the kitchen table drinking his meds or inside their room sleeping.
It’s very painful because I always dreamed papa to be with us for a long time. For him, to see me married and for him to see his grandsons or granddaughters one day.
Truth be told, I got scared when we took him to the hospital. My mom was already crying, and it’s unusual, because we’ve been to hospitals with my dad whenever he got stroke but it would always be calm. But, this time… mama was crying. I also got scared when I saw him being “intubated” (I dont know if that’s the right term). I just stood there… scared. Not knowing what to do. T_T I don’t want to see my papa having a hard time.
When he was transferred to the ICU and was able to rest while his vital signs are being monitored and stabilized. I felt better because I saw and believed everything to be okay. Although, the heart rate 143 was a high one… it was the last heart rate we saw before we left the hospital to go get the papers needed. I believed Papa was sending out a message: “I love you” and I pointed it out to mom .. and we both said: We love you Papa.
But, arriving home.. I felt the sting.. the emptiness. And i sobbed hard. But, I didn’t want to believe it. So, I prayed for God’s grace. And that I know everything that is happening…. is left unto Him. And then we got a call that my Dad’s BP went up and it was good news.
We left home as soon as we got what we needed and rushed back to the hospital. As soon as we settled to the “Watcher’s Lounge”. The ICU doctor called our attention and said that my dad’s BP went down again and he is in a critical condition. My mom bawled and panicked. I cannot panic, and was busy reassuring her. Then we went to the lounge again… having mixed emotions…. scared… hopeful… pleading that my dad would be alright. A few minutes after…. we were called in and the doctor said… my dad has no vital signs whatsoever and that they were trying to revive him.
We stood outside immobilized. Not wanting to accept what was happening… because it was way too soon. Not this soon. T_T And then we braved our way inside and saw 2 doctors and 3 nurses. Mom rushed inside and held his feet. I couldn’t even bear going near him. It was too painful to me. The doctors were talking to us… but it seemed what they were saying were pretty alien to me. We were in shock. This happens to movies. Not real life. Not this soon.
I lost my papa. I thought I’d have a lot of time with him. I thought he’d be with us for a long long time…….
2014 has been very good. I can say I have begun to shed off things I deem not my priority and began to really pick up areas in my life I want to focus on. (My declarations really paid off: Pure Bliss 2014)
Primarily, I have been cherishing one of God’s greatest gift to me: Boo. I know, he has been the talk of the year in my blog, because it’s an area I have been holding back for most of my life. But, with him, I feel I am ready. And with that, everything is just happening in God’s perfect time. I have grown a lot, he showed me in so many ways areas of me that I have masked. And if i have to enumerate them, I may just cry! I have also encountered areas of me that did not grow up and very much “madrama”. In the end, I learned how to balance being me… (and part of that is still madrama sweetheart!)… and how to express it in a healthy way. I thought, I’d be spending my holidays with my boo, but I guess its not yet the time. (Miracles take some timeeee!) In fact, he is not with me today! He is off somewhere on a vacay… T_T But, it’s alright. We have chosen to just go gaze at the moon when the clock strikes 12. Oh please weather be good! I miss him. It was also this year that I got my first ever bouquet from a guy!!!(and from boo pa!!!) *soooooo kilig* And i got two babies: Boobear and Boocholit!!! This year also we had our first year anniversary as TsulitTeam! ❤ and our 2nd year anniversary since the day we met! It was also my first time to cook up a birthday surprise to someone I love! It was funnnn!!!! ❤
Family….. this year brought us closer together with all that has been happening. It has been a sweet, meaningful, intimate Christmas with just us and the whole household celebrating. We also gained a new addition to the family: Woody! Who also gave us a scare for a good five days because he got lotst. Good thing the angels brought him back!! he is the yin to our yang! Huwaaaa!!! He is absolutely friendly! Darlene alsooo got to travel with us! The best!
Our Community, has gone through a bump, which challenged beliefs and relationships.. and where we really stand in our mission to contribute to our community, city, Philippines, Asia and the world. I think this year was more of introspection… albeit all the events together… but different soulful journey to each and everyone.
A lot of friends came and a lot left town and out of the country.
This year was definitely filled with engagements! My facebook is flooded with feeds of rings on fingers. Which is a wonderful sign! That means, most of my friends are actually living their dreams. aside from all the celebrities that got engaged and married (one being my favorite… dong and marian. not because its hyped up like it is… but because of how their relationship really stood the test of time.) Also, the day they were engaged, they had a dinner at the same restaurant we were in… and it was another [insert twilight zone music here] affirmation. Affirmation, that everyone is gearing up for their next level in relationships.
At the beginning of the year… I did a financial timeline to my 5 cousins (young-uns) and I’m happy to see 2 of them are actually working on it as I write. And has been handling their finances creatively. I have also got reports and random messages about how they are grateful they have cleared up their liabilities and started to take on their savings.
I also experienced Bagyong Glenda…. in Manila, having my flight cancelled… and another one having my flight rebooked because of Bagyong Ruby.
It was also this year that I entered a dance club but only this time it was back to the 80’s themed! It was absolutely fun! I have my boo to thank for pushing me to enjoy! (Although, I would have preferred he was with me:P)
Also, this year Ate Honey commented I improved in my speaking/workshop craft! Whoopeee! More confident and a bit grown up whoopee! *somersaults*
It was my first to do yoga for almost 2 months. Usually, I do it intermittently. But, along the road it got lost and sooo once again… im bringing it back up on schedule.
I also got to catch up with Lola B, Kathy, Ate Grace whom I haven’t seen for ages!!!! It was refreshing to see them! Also caught up with other friends: Resh, Ate Riz, Ate Jolly, JV, Ana…. among others….
A lot of things happened that are of concern to me. First off, the planes that went missing, the plane crashes, it was a weird statistics this year. Also Vietnam noted it was a weird year of accidents too. I also learned a lot of things during my two trips. This time, I actually listened well in between my rest! The ongoing global unrest and want of greed and more power, and thus igniting wars.
Philippines on one hand, exposed a lot of corrupt individuals, even though there isn’t much, the fact that they are under public scrutiny is a big change already.
Despite this, there are many things to learn; that amidst all these chaos, one day there will be order. In between all the pain and heartbreaks, and challenges… your real power .. that which is within you… called Love.. will emerge… and then it will soar…
All in all, I am grateful for all the blessings, the insights, the loving memories, the challenges and the growth that came after this year.
Thank you for 2014. 🙂
Milestones of 2014:
TsulitTeam: TsulitTeam movie dates, spontaneous dates, mornings and midnight conversations, 1st TsulitTeam Anniversary, 2nd Anniversary (day we met)
Weddings: Paul & ate Krang
Heart Council Sessions: 10
Travels: Kidapawan: (3), Eden (2), Panabo (1), Manila (6), Cebu (1), South Korea (1), Vietnam (1)
Beach: 4 times lang??!!!
Workshops/ Training Conducted: Heart Quest batch 5, Stages of Courtship, Special Session: 7 Qualities of Master Achievers, Back to Base 6, Heart of Networking (4x), Success Mastery
New Friends: Churchille, Dana, Ish
Workshops Attended: Rich Dad Cashflow @ SM Lanang, Way of a Healer, Meet Your Angels Workshop, BARS
Ideas that were Rapid Prototyped: Coffee Party, Back to Base 6, Love Sessions with The Maria’s (Love Salon -I am Maria Session),
New Inaanaks: Baby Adi, Baby Tori,
Baby Shower: Fraiche
After having dinner with Lola Bebot at Yellowcab (which is another story i will recount one of these days),Darlene told us a story of a girl…
She was a crew in yellowcab and Darlene saw her while she was about to go to the comfort room. She sensed something was up and saw the lady looking at her magic space(according to Coelho.. A space where you usually focus your attention onto.. You can read it in his book Valkyries) and looking forlorn.
Darlene went back to where we were seated and battled on whether to comfort the stranger and was clearing herself of her intention: was it to look good? Or the need to rescue or was it a call to be just there. After a series of deep breathing, she chose the latter. She went back to the lady and gently approached her and asked her: “Can i hug you? You look sad and you might need a hug..” And the girl nodded and darlene hugged her. The girl started crying and Darlene kept assuring her: its okay, whatever shes going through.. She can do it.
Darlene need not know the details but clearly the girl needed support at that time. After a few moments she guided the girl by gently having slow deep breaths…. while clearing the space.
And she calmed down.
I told her: it was the right thing to do and that im happy she did it and i was inspired… And told her.. “See, you are such an angel”
While walking across the grocery, just seconds after Darlene finished the story.. In front of us was a little girl wearing a bunny shirt who reached out her hand to Darlene first.. Wanting to touch her… And we all smiled and Darlene placed her hand at the bottom palms up… Then the baby reached her hand out to mom and then to me… And we touched her too. And we all giggled.. And exclaimed.. Because we didnt do anything.. The kid simply called our attention at that moment. The dad just simply stared amused at three giggling strangers.
We were about to leave when the baby reached her left hand out again to reach for Darlene, then mom and me. She did it three times. When the baby’s mom arrived she smiled… Wondering: what in the world is going on? But then it was her baby reaching out… Then it stopped and they left after waving bye bye. And i told the baby: See you angel! 😇
I told both mom and Darlene.. I think the angels are affirming us.. What you did was just right and it was a “job well done” earth angel tap in the hand.🌈💐
And you know what it means when messages arrives in three’s.
I told darlene to write her own version… But i am also compelled to write my own version…
We are all here for one another.. May the person be a stranger, family, friend or even enemy.
Sometimes… The angels we know can be just inside of us… And its the best angel you can count on first.
And nothing could ever go wrong when you act with love. It is not normal to reach out to strangers.. We were taught to fear them.. We were even taught not to trust people we know as friends along the way..
But eventhough the world and the people we trust and love can hurt us… God never failed to send his angels.. to you..
Sometimes God sends angels in the form of strangers or family or friends.
Sometimes they are there for a second, a moment, a day, a week, a month, a year, even years…. a lifetime and many lifetimes.
Everyone is in fact an angel to one another… And really the world can be heaven on earth if we practice kindness everyday…
Not just strangers…
If strangers can bring relief the way darlene did to the girl… Imagine if we practice that to the ones we love.
Specially to the ones we love. They need our kindness more… Not your estrangement. They need your understanding more than your judgment and your need to be right. They need your hug and your care specially in the moments when its becoming hard to love them, specially when they make you crazy mad!!😠😤
All they need is your love and care… Your extra kindness… Because what makes extraordinary days.. Extraordinary? Is the extra you give it…
Extra love, extra care, extra kindness, extra forgiveness, extra patience… Never be afraid to add a little extra… To go the extra mile… You never lose that way.. You just gain.
So give that extra… to the ordinary… And see the magic and love all around you..
Oopsie its Thanksgiving nga pala!!
Here’s a thank you to everyone who has been an angel to me.. Strangers or not…(you all have been tagged in facebook because you have inspired me in some way.. And showed me lessons.. Good or bad)
And im really grateful to God whose love and guidance never fails.. Eventhough on moments i may not understand.. Thank you for always assuring me that everything is working out according to your Plan…
I have surrendered my life to you long ago… I realize now, i never should stop because there are still mountains to climb, valleys to walk on to, countries to explore.., seas to dive into, waves to enjoy…. Sunshine, rainbows and butterflies…. And the world needs me to live my life 100 percent.. Wholeheartedly.
I know there are moments that i am impatient and stubborn… But my journey the past year has taught me a great deal ❤️
I was kinda feeling down a night ago.. even today… However, as usual it has always been me and the angels on times like this…specially at night.
There are moments when i dont feel all too kind, there are moments where i feel “im so fed up with this thing/that person, i cant take no more”.
Love tank = 30% is running pretty low the past week.
So, if its to be.. Its up to me.
I took off to get myself a massage and facial which i have been putting on hold since day one of 2014. (Okay okay i did get 3-4 massages over the year).
And then, fulfilling a commitment i made with my boo.. Will go visit md… to appease him that im alright and im really taking care of myself.
Good thing i have Bee and Resh.. whom i can call on on moments like this… And ta-dah! We are off to the beach after a little stint at the MD. (That is if we can make it.. ) which we didn’t and in fact the two almost didnt make it on their flight. Booohooo! 😭
But, being with them makes me feel .. “Hey, you are not alone… We are here”. Not that we talked a lot nor was i able to dump. But, it made me feel… That God also blessed me with warm hearted, bubbly, kind, loving, will go out of the way friends.
Im just happy that I have my sistereynas i can call on to when things get topsy turvy. They both are also going thru their own stuff… But we all managed to just laugh it all out.
Grateful for lifelong, authentic sistereynas.. Thanks bee and resh! Love lots! 😍😍😘😘 and of course Dorlay who gives me space and a breather and who knows what im going thru with just one look…. And would sound off her gentle.. Wise words to comfort me.