August Rush!

It’s not the usual busy August I have the past few years…. but… it was filled with memorable days!

First off: Our Heart Circle Initiative with my mom is on the roll for the first quarter. There were challenges along the way, as facilitators. True. This role in the society is not easy but it is rewarding if one sees changes in the lives of the people that are being empowered. we are challenged to shorten our modules, and all that and find better, easier, gentle loving ways to effectively communicate… how we can have a world that works…. with no one left behind….tumblr_lrqfjjosqr1qi23vmo1_500

Secondly: Ive been meeting some of my friends… individually.. .and all are asking to have some kind of “Maria Gathering”. To talk about women and relationships… Huwaaa. as if im the go-to gal for that ano? Siguro sa women part I am. But, I did my fair share of studying and observing couples around…. and for it maybe I can support other ladies… to find their wholeness first.. and being happy with their own self first… before sharing their life with another 🙂 [and I’m about to do my mini debut.. haha with 4 lady friends muna… I wanted to keep it small.. for the moment… and we will play it by ear ] – August 27

Third: Ana is back! Wooot Woot! and always when she’s back… there’s always something cooking up for us ladies! And this time we finally visited this oldskul bar called Acropolis. and we danced with what ? 80’s music! Mwahahaha. It was one of the most fun nights I’ve had with my girlfriends! Haha. Sa uulitin!!

Fourth: Spending time with my family and watching movies as our bond is something to look forward too. Just don’t make me watch horror okay? I scream too much! Puhleaseee! :p

and Fifth: It has been an awesome month with my man! The best! We celebrated a milestone this month… and we approached it with our usual spontaneity! Ahhh, may we never lose that! We wade through our challenges really well.. and have learned how to do it together. In synch! Like peanut butter and jelly, strawberry ice cream and crepes, mangoes and grahams, pancakes and butter… okay .. now Im hungry!!! And I’ve noticed.. our usual “tampuhan moments” are shorter… which is a progress and we can catch ourselves in between… and forgive right away! Ahhhh. The best ka talaga, Love! *hugs* *blows kisses*

Grateful.Always grateful for everything that has been happening! 🙂

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Meeting of the Titans

What a day! What a way to spend the first day of April…. I don’t even know where to start because this is one of the days.. I will want to remember…

It started out with a sweet morning with my darlingboo… and with him giving me my first april fool’s joke!

Boo: Break na tayo!
Me: Ha??? Why? Huhuhuhu
Boo: Wehehe. April Fool’s!!
Me: Hay salaaamaat!!! Kala ko totoo
Boo: bakit ? Gf ba kita?
Me: Ay oo nga pala! Hihihi BF lang nga naman kita, at BF mo ko.. And di yun nab-break eh!

I swear! Lakas naman bumawi ni boo.

After my usual sweet extraordinary morning with him..

I got myself ready for this big day! Today, I initiated a meet-up with two of my mentors. One is Hawaiian visiting us and another is a Filipino.

I knew they are destined to meet! And what better way, than to fetch the Hawaiian mentor whom I will call BC and my Filipino Mentor whom i will call Ninang…..

When BC saw me earlier as I fetched him, he said: You know, you have a gift… It is your presence… It makes people wanna go: *sigh* and relaxed… Like a wave of relief. Well, i know you are not like this sometimes cause you go through challenges on your own… But, when you are like this.. Peaceful.. This is you….

I laughed and was humbled to hear that and thanked him for the affirmation that I am doing my part in giving service to humanity and the people around me by my mere presence.

Ever since I attended the workshop of BC last September of year 2012… I had a flash that Ninang needs to meet him.

BC visited many times after that but never had the chance to sit down with ninang. They did meet once in Manila….but that was it.

Anyway, the initial plan was just to drop BC off and I won’t stay that long.. But then when I was about to leave, they both asked me to stay.

The Titans asked me to stay?!!!! Of course, I stayed and listened to the whole conversation…

How both of them have similar mission and purpose in life. What I admire about them is that both of them are clear with what they are doing and have given up all the extravagant lifestyle to live simply so they can teach others to simply live! They are here to help spread love and respect and to walk the talk… And how you can use your own gifts God gave you to aid in the journey of spreading love, kindness and peace and abundace throughout humankind…

With BC, he always emphasizes: No one should be left behind.

Both of them are concerned how to reach the grassroots because we all need to help them.

And with that a strong alliance was made… Both of them are coming up of ways to support the healing and the birthing of love in the deep recess of our hearts…

I had goosebumps and a lot of a-ha moments listening to the two of them…

There were just so many things happening! And it’s like something sure is happening around the world.. Because why the two needs to meet? And with urgency to gather all…. to aid the healing.. of all relationships, and bringing in Love… And to Respect another.

I served them lunch that time.. I dropped off BC at a certain mall and on the way.. I squealed when I heard a faint familiar music playing in the background:

“And i can change the world, I will be the sunlight in your universe”

I said: BC!!!!! Listen to the song!

And he smiled and said: That’s a sign! Because what we had in mind will change the world 🙂

They had a discussion that America is slowly losing its identity because it doesn’t know it’s roots. Only Hawaii has a culture left, but its being westernized day by day and many young are forgetting the roots. And it doesn’t have culture unlike most countries like the Philippines. The only way America will find itself is through war because they were founded through war. It has gone numb.

But, in the Philippines it is here that BC found the most faith-based country. Everything spiritual is very automatic in the Philippines. Everyone anchors with God and our Source…. that’s why he keeps coming back.
And it is here he feels most love…..

After that the song “Someday We’ll Know” played and we had a brief discussion about the missing Malaysian plane… And then “Sleeping Child”

Those three songs gave us affirmation the connection of our Divine life purpose to the world..

Afterwards, I conducted a workshop.. Its our last session and our closing and it went really well.. Its a different story altogether…

And then after that.. We headed off to another office of ours… And met the others where we stayed till quarter to 11? Or something… And discussed about what more we can bring in … and how we can better service the world…through our friends and families and people who will come to us … and journey with.

But, not after giving everybody the april fool’s joke that BC and ninang’s meeting did not go well and they had a huge fight..
Some caught the joke right away.. The others their faces were like: Huwaaaaay??? Huwaaat?!!! How can that beee?!!

So laughtripppp!!

My day ended well too .. Boo stayed up with me till our ka-meet arrived… And and and I saw sweet ecards on my inbox… I was so touched with that. It’s one of my boo’s winning moves! You always make me happy talaga!

It’s the fourth month… And not even halfway 2014 but im experiencing bliss with my boo and everybody around me.
To the point someone mentioned..

“I like your makeup today!!”

And i was like: But, i didnt wear any makeup at all today?

Ahhh must be my happy aura.. Since my vision is happening.. And I know and i am rested because i havethe support of my family and friends and my boo to come home to.. At night and to wake up with every morning….

I also thank my Loving Father, the Source, my God… of always guiding me.. I know there are times I doubt myself but the past two weeks … Your message was: Believe….
Which affirmed me to believe in what I do… And what You want me to do…
And last Saturday your message was: Love

Thank you…

I do believe…

Yours in Love,

Liberty

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WILD & Awesome 2013

and indeed it was a W.I.L.D… one *insert song Wild One ft. Sia*

in case one needs a refresher… I coined WILD as “wonderfully, interesting, love filled days” and indeed my 2013 was filled with that!
Wonderfully interesting by pushing our Liwanag World Festival last February 2013 and by late July, early August my love filled days started and it’s been brewin ever since up to now…. and my heart is desiring for a forever here. [insert song: First Day of Forever] *may the love angels guide us* Yes, there’s something sweet in that desire. Right, boo?

Everyone I know was going through a whole lot of ups & downs. In fact, this year is one tough year for everyone. It was a year of “losses” – be it personally, financially, emotionally, physically…….. I lost a good close friend of mine… Yan2x…. but I know he will always be remembered in my heart. And a lot of my good friends and loved ones lost someone who are close to their hearts too. Also the calamities that devastated parts of our country was equally depressing. However, let this all be not for naught but always cherish and remember our loved ones. Remember our good times with them…because they are never gone… they will always live in our hearts. Meantime, may it teach us to be more present with one another and to always give our all…. When it comes to relationships. Take chances that are there for the taking because we never know what would happen next…… and say the words you would want your loved ones to hear….. because today can be the last day or the first day of your life….. The year was filled with expose as well as the spotlight shifts to our corrupt government officials. *insert explicit words here* It was in fact a year of drama or turmoil if you choose to suffer that long, but at the bright side of everything … is that sometimes… some things needs to fall apart so we can choose the pieces we want to stay in our life…..

This year, I had to go through bouts of confusion in matters of career, because I was confused with all the opportunities unfolding to the point of “I don’t want to move” or “I don’t know what to do”. But, I did try new ventures and found out it was more of an added skill to what I can do one day to support me for a larger purpose which is to be of service to the Filipinos and ultimately the humankind. By spreading LOVE and in more tangible terms… giving each one sustainable support and empowering them to go find their own path.  I even thought of moving out from home… but felt it wasn’t the right time. Yet.

To everyone who braved the year 2013… I congratulate you! Two more challenging years up ahead and we are well on our way to adjusting to the thinning veil of materialism and externals versus valuing what truly matters most to each and every one of us. And that is: what we feel beyond the physical… love, relationships, & spirituality. Just hold on to what matters most and all will not be lost. J Make sure you pick up the worthy ones! Pass up good, wait for great! If you found yourself something great…. Hold onto that and fight for your true heart’s desires….. they don’t usually come around for a second time! 🙂

This year, I’ve experienced various individuals who tested my patience. More like, I’ve encountered people I would rather not deal with in matters of business affairs and personal encounters. Also, betrayal of trust was one issue I tackled, however God always spares me and keeps me from harm while at the same time able to teach me a lesson. I also encountered my bitchy self twice this year. And I know, I ought to trust my intuition more. And now, I know when to stay or leave without prolonging the agony. Ive also learned how to forgive myself for making stoopid mistakes now and then. *face palm*

But then, it was good that on February, I did a spring cleaning of my heart….. Forgiving and letting go of past hurts and angers…. In order to bring in love again… and he arrived on an August day… like a gentle koala with his eucalyptus… and he was just right before my eyes pala… I just have to open my eyes…. [insert song: open your eyes to love]

This year was also wedding-filled!! 7 weddings! But only managed to join the 5 weddings. My closet is filled with dresses na! I was secondary sponsor on 2 weddings, one I was the candle, and another towel. To all the newly married couples for the year 2013… I wish you all the best and may you inspire more people to love and cherish their chosen ones!  and mind you, they were all couples and partnerships that I admire because each has their own spark and uniqueness and they inspire me.

[shout outs to: Rey & Karyl (Urdaneta) – you are a young couple, however I see the love and commitment that is rare sa age nyo… it inspires me!, Kuya Noli & Ate Tere (Batangas) – ive seen you together 4 years ago and we thought you were just friends! Mag boyfriend pala eh!!, Kuya Jaime & Ate Beth (Tagum – may 26) – huwaaa your goal while you were under me Ate Beth was to plan your wedding… you have no idea how your partnership and devotion to Kuya Jaime inspires me.  Meynard & Fran(june 8) – when I heard your love story… I was deeply touched and moved. Kuya Eli and Ate Precious(july 20) – your story is similar to mine.. so that’s why I understood what you guys had to go through… and look at you all pregnant and happy already! Bords &Regine – you are a cute couple! best wishes!!  Cris and Ate Jill – Huwaaaaa!! You’ve seen me both in my brokenness and happiness…. And it is with your partnership that inspires me to also not give up and to keep opening my eyes….]

Despite everything in 2013, I am super grateful for one gift God gave me. 🙂 He is a gift because; I love who I am becoming because of him. And I know it to be true. I know he wouldn’t like it if I mention his name here…. But you know who you are sweetheart! To us, the challenge is… the gift of patience, anticipation, and building the foundation to a lasting worthy partnership…. I don’t know where it will take us… but I’ll be holding you in my heart as you will hold me in yours…. It won’t be hearts and flowers or rosy all the time…. But always remember, if there’s a fall out…. that won’t change my love and respect to you. Kisses  hugstight

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This year for BDJ’s checklist: Here’s what I managed to cross off:

*Allow yourself to make mistakes

*Be eco-conscious

*Build your own blog/website – I opened a new theme this year….. @ tumblr

*Buy flowers for your mother – during her birthday! She loves flowers!!

*Clean your playlist – I did!! Whoopeee!

*Dance in the pouring rain – who doesn’t love to be childlike every now and then?

*Drink more water and less soda – check!! Altho I did drink more soda this year than last year

*Eat more fruits and less sweets – yup! Less chocolates and cakes this year!

*Face your greatest fear – JUMP!!! Jumping off the Hayahay rock! Believe me that wasn’t just a fear…. It’s trauma that I overcame from that jump!

*Get your fortune told – Uhmm does pulse reading count?

*Give compliments – Yup!!!

*Google yourself – I have sooo much digital trail … I plan to take them off one by one one day!!

*Jump off a high cliff into the ocean – well, it wasn’t a high cliff… it was just a short jump.. but that was a big deal for me *refer to greatest fear*

*Laugh your heart out

*Learn a new song and dance – chicken dance!! Whoops kiri whoops!!

*Learn a new sport – Kayak!!!
*Learn how to drive – more like polishing my driving skills. More confident now. Parking na lang!

*Learn how to take criticisms – *refer to my post HERE

*Learn to forgive yourself and others

*Learn to say No

*Let go of your past – supercheck!

*Make a baby laugh – haha all the time!

*Make someone a good cup of coffee – yup!!

*Own a pet and take good care of it – Chichay!!! *here* (October)

*Plant a tree – @ Maa Watershed offsetting our LWF carbon footprint (August)

*Play a game of poker with your friends and bluff a hand – new year 2013 with my childhood friends!

*Say “I Love You” to someone special – Bootsulit!  *kiss*

*Smile at 100 strangers

*Sort your wardrobe

*Take a holiday trip with your Best Friend! – Bee! But it was more of business pleasure? But well it was really pleasure naman! Haha (August)

*Throw a huge party with your cousins – Bridal Shower (October)

*Update your resume

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2013 Firsts:

*press conferences

*my first PPA meeting (Potential Problem Analysis)

*ex-deal negotiations

*spirit keeper of Happy Team Campaign (politics)

*meeting the Filipino Chinese businessmen here in Dabaw

*First Book reading of I am Maria!

*filing a police report

*got a license from IC

*organized a bridal shower for my cousin

Movies on-screen:

*Life Of Pi, Les Miserables, White House Down, 4 Sisters and a Wedding, Girl, Boy, Bakla, Tomboy

Memorable Events:

*Liwanag World Festival 2013 preparation and days

*Lunch with Joey Ayala at the Adventurer’s abode, Dinner at Kublai’s home! (spontaneous!)

*MISSION Reunion @ Davao

*My Birthday Celebration (spontaneous!) everyone just went sa bahay! Huwaaa everyone that mattered to me. We watched a movie till sawa!!! It was just casual and chill

*Hosted THE RSA with a bang! Huwaaaaa! I did it well and a lot of people congratulated me whoopee I don’t think I want to do it again though. Nyahahaha. Scared the wits out of me!

*Ikepono Gathering (April – Davao)

*meeting Ate Claire after a year sa Leap! J

*attending Milo’s concert! A popular indie European musician, who is the cousin of Ate Maya.

*meeting Justin Garrido of Socialproject.ph

*Bowling with Ikepono peeps!

*Seeing Boses and the cast @ Cinematheque

*with Kath and her hubby, gift giving @ Malinaw Elementary School

*met ate Meg!!

*Blue moon date with Boo

*joined Million March (peaceful way) – singing

*Kuya Atho arrives

*huge waves @ Hayahay!!!

*BBQ Party – convergence with the Lightworkers

*Ate Au’s Birthday (Paradise in the morning, with Dr. Vic’s talk, plus dinner @ Sarung Banggi).

*Movie date: Harry Potter with Boo

*Boo & Trish episode so cute!

*Full moon Lunar Party @ Ilawod House Warming

*Kapampangan Ilokano talk with Boo

*DXN’s 14th Anniversary!

*Rainbow in Club Med, Cherating Beach (Nov. 19)

*DXN’s 20th Anniversary!

*days and nights with Boo

Travel:

*Lake Agco, Hayahay (4), Cebu, Bohol, Tagum, Paradise Island (2), Sea Grass (1), Padada (2), Marbel (3), Eden Nature (1), Manila (4), Baguio (1), Malaysia (1), Bangkok (1),

Workshops:

I conducted/facilitated:

Discovery Workshop Cebu, Heart Quest 4(5 sessions),

I staffed:

Ikepono (March Davao), Ikepono (April / Manila), Discovery (level1), Level 2 Breakthrough (2)

I attended:

BOP, PCTC, Wealth Management Forum, Wealth Workshop with Russ, Surrender to Love, The Shift, Club Med Cherating International Seminar (DXN)

in your face

a day of wholeness. that was yesterday.

It was our last intensive/session for our 2 month coaching program. We had a total of 20 coachees, which was quiet a load considering, the effort one needs to break down the stubborn barriers/habits each possessed, and the struggle to break down words and simplify for them to understand.

I was one of the facilitators for the coaching series, and I wasn’t supposed to really take on coachee’s. But, I did, because during the pre-coach series, I handled them and one requested not to be passed to the other coach. That was something I should not have done, because I thought I could juggle the workload, I could be getting from the coming weeks.

You see, aside from the coaching series, I  had to handle a Service Center from a nearby city, handle other commitments (workshops, I’ve committed to), and brainstorm for the re-programming of a coaching series, social stuff(I have to re-surface for highschool & college friends).

During the last session, we asked them to share their own Heart Quest Journey… “what worked” and “what didn’t work”. One of my coachee’s chose to speak first and he got 100% on bot accounts but he said, to my face and in front of 19 coachees, and 6 coaches, that the “coaching” part didn’t work.

That was like the end of Davao for me. [not the world, yet. though] I felt really, really bad, and it was like ughhhh. I can’t take it off my mind.

I wanted to lash out or burst out into tears from getting that feedback. And he went on and on, about how he had to do his own thing, and that he did it all by himself (which was really the purpose of coaching, I’m merely a sounding board). “My happiness & excitement worked”, he says but it was like saying “I didn’t like my coach”.

I wanted to defend myself, I wanted to say: “Can’t you see? The whole point of the coaching series was for you to do it on your own. Not someone who would tell you what to do. And besides, you weren’t even doing your part when I asked you to list down your action plans! *&#$%!” Insert all the reasons my ego needs to defend itself.

But then, I deduced it to: “Why, thank you for your feedback and your honesty, I needed that.” *as I grit my teeth, and softened my glare.

However, there was some truth to that. For the first few weeks, I was updated by their progress, cheering them on, suggesting things, reminding them. However, when they started not to be on time when it comes to calls, I told them to just sms me. Maybe, the calls was too much for me, too uncomfortable, because I had to stop what I was doing, and for the next couple of weeks, my commitment to the 2 coachees regressed. It was also due to the fact, that I was facing something really challenging which involves thousands of money to recover, and emotional stuffs. And it’s like I wasn’t in the space of dealing with it.

I was also holding back for most of the part.

And in the long run, I wasn’t there na. 100%. So, I really deserved to hear that feedback. No matter, how that hurts, and how that marred my ego. Man, no stroking of egos today pala!

Once again my issues of holding back, people pleasing are coming to surface. Arghhh.

And what I was giving to the series, is being reflected with the results they are getting.

My gentle, loving, allowing self didn’t work. Well, wait lang. I’ll be your hard-to-please, no- nonsense, push-you-to your limits coach! Haha. Joke lang.

But, the real struggle for me as of late… is balancing all these commitments all at once, which is really sometimes taking a toll on me, as  I have to use all my mental, emotional, physical, spiritual and social capacity to it’s limits. And really being there 100% despite all the challenges trying to burn my butt.

Balance. I need to find my balance.

(wala pa ako love life nyan ha!! see, how much I need a love life that is not another headache? one that is light and humorous, because life… and other people are giving me theirs na noh!)

Parting Is Such Sweet Sorrow

What started off as a reluctant choice to join LEAP turned out to be one of the greatest choice I’ve ever made.

I just graduated under the rain and wind of the storm Falcon, even threatening our graduation to be called off, but nevertheless it pushed thru. My forecast: bright sunny morning worked as the sun showed at around noon somewhere in Antipolo.

June 26, 2011 was a date I would never forget as we had our final circle….. as 57 of us are now officially called a “LEAP-er”. It paved way to tears, a whole lot of gratitude and most of all overflowing with love as it manifested from our hugs and kisses. It was heartbreaking to say “adieu” to our Head Coach and our 13 Coaches….. specially those who touched my heart and had our personal encounter (Coach Bong, Coach Jic, Coach Charette, Coach Marco, Coach Kai, Coach Tj, Father Coach Allan, Coach Aaron….)

I’ve experienced so much with my bond from them despite us coming from different background and culture, we shared unconditional love and gratitude and being in the moment and each making our own POSIBLE+ story….

My journey with them was exhilarating…. I felt genuine love and friendship… It even paved way to a POSIBLE + Story… which I will later impart since it deserves a whole new different post….

our Leap Night last June 23 was also jam packed amidst the rain….. the support from other teams and our family and friends were awesome.

LEAP POSIBLE +…… thank you so much for accepting me as I am…. for the love and support… the laughter and the tears…. I will forever treasure you…..

We are currently having our own “separation anxiety”………. missing each other…. cannot concentrate… wanting to bond every weekend… arrrghhh…

parting with them…. is such sweet sorrow….

till we meet again my beloved team….

love and kisses,

Tina
I am Love and Power!