Experiencing God’s Blessing 2016

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And ta-da! Here’s my theme for 2016!

Usually, I would write a series of what my year will be…. but having gone through a lot of things last year and how uncertain life can be…

This year, I want to make it simple.

I just want to experience God’s Blessing.

That’s it.

In every way, I just want to experience HIS miracles. I want to recognize them. So, this year, I’m dropping all my plans… and I will just TRUST and SURRENDER to what GOD has in store for me.

So, Lord…. I let go of my need to control… I am consciously allowing YOU to happen to me!

Love and Magical Kisses from one of your earth angels slash mermaid,

Tinael

Infinite Love and Abundance 2015

2015 was a bit of a challenge for me, in all ways. It tested me to the point it left me stunted, a bit depressed, unwilling to move. I wanted to. But, by the middle of it, I wanted to design my life and re-create it, but I could not get myself to do it. I tried being hard on myself, tried wallowing in self pity, being madrama, I tried to feel every moment. It left me scarred. But, I know the light is still glimmering. There are moments of love and laughter amidst everything. But, there were also moments of despair.

I am still refining what I really wanted in my life. One thing is for sure, I want to raise my own family and become the best wife and mother that I can be. But, that couldn’t happen if I am not ready, nor if my future partner in life is also ready. That is the one thing I am sure of.

But, other than that? Career path? Doing my life’s work?I have devoted myself to journey with every person I meet that I will be one of their supporters in their journey back to Love. Little did I know, I shall be also in the flow of it. It was a constant dance, away from Love, and going back to Love.

What transpired the last months of the year 2015 is the realization that: Anything could happen. IN the blink of an eye, God can come and take you away. Whether you’ve done your life’s work or not. No matter how hard you bargain. Also, it is with God’s grace that you live. And how would you choose to live today.

I am suddenly remembered by a statement of Sister Fidelis, that in the after life, God won’t ask us how many projects we’ve done for the world, or how many people we helped…. but God will only ask us one question: HOW WELL DID YOU LOVE?

Did you love wholeheartedly? Or did you hold back? Did you stop loving because you feared? Or you just tried to numb yourself.

I shall always always remember that statement. And of course it is a good match with: You never lose by LOVING.

Of course, there are moments that it is challenging to practice that Love. Because, my ego mind loves to interfere, but I’m doing my very best to be friends with my ego … although there are my moments that I hate how I react to such things… such as… being selosa, being irritable or cranky, unable to take a joke, pikon and a whole lot of things.

All I ask always, is the guidance from the Divine…. and to SURRENDER all my need to control. πŸ™‚

Lord, I surrender all my burdens and worries to you. I know you have always taken care of me, my family, my boo and friends. May I recognize the miracle in everyday, and to always just choose Love.

*sigh* I miss my dad so much, that it brings me tears at night whenever I remember him. It was always my dream for my dad to see his apo’s and his son-in-law one day. No, he didn’t even catch a glimpse of him. 😦 But, my dad despite his lack of words, showed us in his own way, how not to be judgmental. You can always be you and well he’d be mad but he was never one to keep grudges. T_T He was the best example of unconditional love and BEING-ness. Having him around and just hearing you talk.

It was also this year I experienced how to receive support and help from other people. After Papa left…. a lot of people were there and supported us every step of the way. Thank you dear Lord, for never leaving our side. They were there when we need them the most. πŸ™‚

*sigh*

After dad’s death, I was unable to bring myself to write in my Happiness Jar… but here is what I came up with:

 

Jan 1: Spent time with family. Grateful for the first day of 2015. Wonderful Weather. Healthy Family. The gift of Silence. Me time. Peace. Released. Calm. Love. Boo is crusing and is out of reach, and the angels gave me a card reading today that said: “Your Loved Ones are Safe”. I am assured Boo is safe and sound. πŸ™‚

Jan 2: Today I am grateful thatΒ  I have an energy exchange from Mom. A family of three also visited the center today and bought 40k worth of products after the health reading! I see this as a sign of things to come!! How does it get any better than this?

Jan 3: GRATEFUL for today! I finally heard from BOO but didnt caught up with him just yet! But happy that he sounds fine… and found a moment to steal some wifi access.

Jan 8: Met Avy and Nessa and did card readings for them. Grateful that a lady inquired in the middle and asked to have hers read soon.

Jan 14: Thankful for my first BEHT client today!! How does it get any better than this?

Jan 21: put your ear down by your HEART and Listen Hard.

Jan 22: Wow! I received my Php 1,350 today from my 3 clients in BEHT! How does it get any better than this?

Jan 27: Today is a happy day with MichaelBoo. I really enjoyed making lambing to him. I love it!! We talked about calls, love, marriage.. tennis, and *wink wink*.

Jan 28:Β  Tribe of Love @ our home, so papa can join in on us and see us meeting. Full house with lots of food. I made the beef tapa today! Woot woot!

feb 4: Its a full moon and we had our MasterMind @ Bahay Kubo.. The Avila’s place. I imagined that I was with Boo and we are together dancing underneath the moonlight! What a day! Today we watched the Shift with the community. “Just be there… Pay attention… .and Magic happens…” =)

Feb 5 2015: Huwaw! Boo’s card arrived today! Happiness! Can’t open it pa! Today I also went to the dentist and it is a win that I’m over my fear of dentists, Mom need not accompany me! I also had a date with Ate Ana @ the Echo Store. I am blessed today!

Feb 9: Today I went out with my Papa. He often loves to join us when we go out of the home. Today, he was game enough to accompany me with my errands. We went to Ate Gyne’s to fetch the Kangen, hatid Paolo at school. and then I visited the post office to follow up on my package, and then I dropped by at a surplus shop whereΒ  I found an MK bag I have always wanted. Then, I urged my dad to come down and take a look inside since there’s not much people anyway. And he went to the slippers area. He loves slippers! And then I bought the bag and my papa was grinning and wanted a red slipper…. so, I told him sure!! I will get that for you of course! And then I wanted to give my Papa a treat and told him: You want to eat the ice cream Pope ate at the aircraft that is made in the Philippines? And he said: Sure! And so, I bought him the strawberry flavored to which he shared with mom and me at home. πŸ™‚ One of the best days with my Papa. πŸ™‚

Feb13: Boo gave me a sweet amethyst necklace. 2 cards. And he cooked the same breakfast I had today. And even made me spaghetti!!! He is the sweetest! And he took a day off!!! *blushes* We watched 3 idiots. My family was also complete for the dinner!!! Best!

Feb 14: How does it get any better than this? Boo gave me a bouquet of flowers and our third BOOBABY!! Boobwhit is the name! So kyootipay!! Lovely lovely flowers. *blushes* Although he got sick today 😦 But he did his best to be with me…. *hugsBooTight*

Feb 15: Happy Birthday Darlene!!!

Feb 18: Papas Birthday! we had Lamb today!! For Papa! And everyone in the Tribe of Love was present. It was a full house full of fun and laughter. And they sang the Old Lang Syne to my Papa. Good thing I recorded that one!

March 18: While traveling, and waiting for our Bacolod flight in Cebu, Tito Devin and Tita Letty fetched us and took us for lunch at Casa Verde one of the oldest restaurants they have. They have the most generous family in Cebu I know!

March 26: Mom wanted a celebration at home. I bought mom a luggage!! Since she always wanted to have one that is not too large or too small. Papa, also took me on the side the other day and asked me to buy white and pink stargazers for mom as his gift (sweeet!!) (aside from mom’s shopping spree for the day!). It is also their Wedding Anniversary. And they celebrated it with just as and the rest of our household. πŸ™‚

April 27: God gave us an angel in the form of Tita Angie who accompanied us at Camp Aguinaldo, even though it is her birthday today. πŸ™‚

July 28: Happy Birthday Paolooo!!

Sept 24: Happy Birthday Boooo!!

Oct 13: Boo reminded that its my favorite day today and we watched: The Croods and Inside Out!!! Best day ever! As always with Boo.

Oct. 16-17 2015: *made **** today with Boo πŸ˜› in Tagalog. Haha. Stayed up till 12:49 am that;s3:49am. He shared me stories and it was an intimate and loving conversation. I felt so loved.

Nov9 2015: watched 3 movies today with Boo: The Maze Runner, The American President and Beetlejuice. It was lovely. He is the best with Quality Time!!! *hugshugs* I miss Papa though.. I still think fondly of him.

dec 21: Im like a princess or Miss Universe… being crowned today!!Β  Becauseeeee right after the Miss Universe Pageant, a mail arrived from my Boo… huwaaaaa… andΒ  I got a CATS beanie! I did not expect that!!! OMG I was so surprised. My Boo sure is supported with the angels and his Timing!

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In a nutshell and milestones of 2015:

TSULITTEAM: Lovely days, he makes breakfast for me, waking him up in the morning, making breakfast for him, accompanies me during events, ensures that I get home safely, takes care of me, on moments he sleeps on mewhenever we watch dark movies, celebrated our 3rd year since the day we first met, celebrated our 2nd year in YM and the beginning of our journey together as TsulitTeam, watches movies and series with me, cuddling, supporting one another, listening and understanding one another, loving and just loving……

Movies: How To Train Your Dragon, Call Center Girl, Pirates of The Carribean ON stranger Tides, Addicted, The Visit,

Series watched with Boo: Game of Thrones, Scandal

Travels: Zamboanga City, Cebu City, Cagayan De Oro City(2), Pagadian City, Cadiz City, Metro Manila(4), Batangas City. Samal, Ozamis City, Iligan City(2), Butuan City, Sta. Maria (Little Boracay), Baguio City, Santiago (Isabela) (2), Rizal(2), Tagum City, Bat Cave and Vanishing Island – Samal, Cavite City(2), Urdaneta City, Balanga, Bataan, Laguna,

Workshops Conducted: Heart of Networking: 7Β Β Β Β Β  Heart of a Leader: 8Β Β Β  5 Love Languages: 1 MasterMind Workshop: 1

Workshops Staffed: Ikepono: One weekend

Workshops Attended: Enneagram With Sister Fidelis

Ate Something New: Satti (as recommended by Boo),

Weddings Attended: 3

BIG EVENT: Hosted @ MOA ARENA πŸ™‚ with 3K people πŸ™‚

Eventss Supported: Philippine Eagle Family Day, Prosperity Consciousness Day, Cycle for Life (registration), A day to Change the World, Bazaar for A Cause, Tribute of Tito Leo (registration)

Angels met: RC, Ate Grace, Ate Kathy, Kuya Chad Laurente, Cristina, Shrijaya,

My Angels and Crystals Online Shop was also born during the bazaar last August 13, 2015 πŸ™‚

Mutant Academy School of Ninja Turtles was also born August 2015

 

I wasn’t able to document that much this year…. however I wished to document more this coming year…. πŸ™‚

Just a little extra goes a long way

After having dinner with Lola Bebot at Yellowcab (which is another story i will recount one of these days),Darlene told us a story of a girl…

She was a crew in yellowcab and Darlene saw her while she was about to go to the comfort room. She sensed something was up and saw the lady looking at her magic space(according to Coelho.. A space where you usually focus your attention onto.. You can read it in his book Valkyries) and looking forlorn.

Darlene went back to where we were seated and battled on whether to comfort the stranger and was clearing herself of her intention: was it to look good? Or the need to rescue or was it a call to be just there. After a series of deep breathing, she chose the latter. She went back to the lady and gently approached her and asked her: “Can i hug you? You look sad and you might need a hug..” And the girl nodded and darlene hugged her. The girl started crying and Darlene kept assuring her: its okay, whatever shes going through.. She can do it.

Darlene need not know the details but clearly the girl needed support at that time. After a few moments she guided the girl by gently having slow deep breaths…. while clearing the space.

And she calmed down.

I told her: it was the right thing to do and that im happy she did it and i was inspired… And told her.. “See, you are such an angel”

While walking across the grocery, just seconds after Darlene finished the story.. In front of us was a little girl wearing a bunny shirt who reached out her hand to Darlene first.. Wanting to touch her… And we all smiled and Darlene placed her hand at the bottom palms up… Then the baby reached her hand out to mom and then to me… And we touched her too. And we all giggled.. And exclaimed.. Because we didnt do anything.. The kid simply called our attention at that moment. The dad just simply stared amused at three giggling strangers.

We were about to leave when the baby reached her left hand out again to reach for Darlene, then mom and me. She did it three times. When the baby’s mom arrived she smiled… Wondering: what in the world is going on? But then it was her baby reaching out… Then it stopped and they left after waving bye bye. And i told the baby: See you angel! πŸ˜‡

I told both mom and Darlene.. I think the angels are affirming us.. What you did was just right and it was a “job well done” earth angel tap in the hand.πŸŒˆπŸ’

And you know what it means when messages arrives in three’s.

I told darlene to write her own version… But i am also compelled to write my own version…

We are all here for one another.. May the person be a stranger, family, friend or even enemy.

Sometimes… The angels we know can be just inside of us… And its the best angel you can count on first.

And nothing could ever go wrong when you act with love. It is not normal to reach out to strangers.. We were taught to fear them.. We were even taught not to trust people we know as friends along the way..

But eventhough the world and the people we trust and love can hurt us… God never failed to send his angels.. to you..

Sometimes God sends angels in the form of strangers or family or friends.
Sometimes they are there for a second, a moment, a day, a week, a month, a year, even years…. a lifetime and many lifetimes.

Everyone is in fact an angel to one another… And really the world can be heaven on earth if we practice kindness everyday…

Not just strangers…

If strangers can bring relief the way darlene did to the girl… Imagine if we practice that to the ones we love.

Specially to the ones we love. They need our kindness more… Not your estrangement. They need your understanding more than your judgment and your need to be right. They need your hug and your care specially in the moments when its becoming hard to love them, specially when they make you crazy mad!!😠😀

All they need is your love and care… Your extra kindness… Because what makes extraordinary days.. Extraordinary? Is the extra you give it…
Extra love, extra care, extra kindness, extra forgiveness, extra patience… Never be afraid to add a little extra… To go the extra mile… You never lose that way.. You just gain.

So give that extra… to the ordinary… And see the magic and love all around you..
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Oopsie its Thanksgiving nga pala!!

Here’s a thank you to everyone who has been an angel to me.. Strangers or not…(you all have been tagged in facebook because you have inspired me in some way.. And showed me lessons.. Good or bad)

And im really grateful to God whose love and guidance never fails.. Eventhough on moments i may not understand.. Thank you for always assuring me that everything is working out according to your Plan…

I have surrendered my life to you long ago… I realize now, i never should stop because there are still mountains to climb, valleys to walk on to, countries to explore.., seas to dive into, waves to enjoy…. Sunshine, rainbows and butterflies…. And the world needs me to live my life 100 percent.. Wholeheartedly.

Love,

Liberty

I know there are moments that i am impatient and stubborn… But my journey the past year has taught me a great deal ❀️

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cheerful bouquets

Cheerful bouquets sounds so Spring-ish!

and, well yesterday … or was it today? that it’s the Day 1 of Spring!!! or to some they celebrate what they call Spring Equinox or Ostara!!! πŸ™‚

And well with that a lot of Spring Cleaning has come to surface. and its best to just carry on and do the cleaning yourself, whether it be a certain home space, physical, or emotional and spiritual baggage in stored.

It was supposed to be a portosawa date with my Boo today, but he is well feeling under the weather the past few days. But, he was very thoughtful enough to spend our day listening to Ninang on the radio, to which she greeted us twice!!! Oh ha? Both of us felt very elated! Thanks Ninang!!! (and i have to commend Boo’s effort to be on time, as he cooked the crabs fast and with a warning he said: “Lagot kayo ni Ninang pag di masarap ang crabs!) Boo talaga! Those are my fun memories with Boo.

To my Boo, I hope you get a good rest tonight, I know the past few days, I’ve been quiet close to impossible, appearing with my demands (thanks for being extra patient on this). When I could just instead love and support your wishes and desires. Sawree!

But, I would really miss the morning ritual with you…. *sigh* Angels angels make me sleep till 6am or 7am… dont wake me up na super early…. T_T

And below is the get Spring Started List from Vineyard Vines. Woot woot!!!

tumblr_n2qx2v1yyC1qzv3vjo1_500I love Spring, for the reason that flowers are blooming! And it sounds like a perfect fun day to go wear your sundress, riding a bicycle with flowers on your basket, as you sing merrily…… huwaaaaa. If Boo is nearby, and we live inΒ  a country-setting, I’d prolly go visit him all the time with my bicycle, and bring him his favorite comfort foods and some herbs (to which he would cringe) and lots of citrus… so he would be well. { it’s good to dream now and then!!!}

Anyhow, I just wish to greet everybody… Happy Spring!!!!! {kahit walang Spring sa Pinas, nyahahhahaha} and grateful to God for this awesome season!! πŸ™‚

 

will you choose me?

In the past, I’ve played with my ideals of being this modern, bold, empowered woman. That, no man can tame me. That, I’d go chase after what I truly want… even if that involves having “no man” in my life.

I grew up thinking that men and babies should be secondary goals… that I have other important things to do than to love a man… but then, I am asked… what is true love… and the miracle of giving birth to a baby next to the awesome high of fulfilling reports and recognition in career?

I thought my romantic and enchanted longings deserved less respect than my longing for chasing my professional career.

But, deep inside… I realized, I have been masking a deeper longing about having someone to share my life with. there’s this longing… to share my life to another. And, I cannot, ignore it anymore. That part of what I truly want…. is a romantic, emotional …. fulfillment.

and mind you… this is not something out of “loneliness”… this is something beyond that… there’s a journey in life… where it stops..

that there’s an enchanted realm where you are only allowed to enter… two by two. you cannot go through that area alone. you’ve got to find someone who loves you enough… to choose you to journey with him…..

and with that.. here are the things I want and desire….

I want a deep, long lasting love… and I want that kind of relationship.

I dont want just a relationship to make me feel secure….

I want friendship and companionship… and someone whom i can be passionately intimate with.

I want the nurturing support of another man…. and I desire the attention of someone who would care for me, notice me, love me and adore me, and someone who can help and support me. I desire someone who understands what I truly like… and then would make plans for me…

I want someone who anticipates my needs, wishes and wants, without me having to ask… I want someone who cares for my well-being, and understands what I am going through in life and recognize the validity of how I feel…

I want someone who would listen… I want someone whom.. I can be safe to be with… whom I can just be with..

I want someone who misses me and who desires to be with me…I want for me to love him and trust him freely, and then rest in the knowing that my love is returned.

I desire someone who is trustworthy and that I can confide in… I want someone whom I can share my life with… so I know that I don’t have to go through life alone…

and most specially… i desire someone who would choose me…. over and over again…..

and with that intention… out in the Universe…

I will be here… waiting for you. πŸ™‚

andΒ  I ask the angels…. to illumine your mind, and enlighten your heart… and for my eyes to see… you. to recognize … that it’s been you all along. or maybe its my mind that needs illuminating.. and your eyes that needs clarity….

but, to you I say this…

I cant wait to take my shoes off and stay with you for a while….

I can’t wait to swim with you….. one day.

may my love for you…. guide you to me….. πŸ™‚

blessings, marriage and a prayer

yesterday, at a workshop, my buddy told me this when she found out i dont have a boyfriend yet:

“hey, you should start eyeing for some guys na.. it would be hard when you are 30 and you are so focused on your career….”

and that got me worried again.

yeah, I’m 25. I’ve a deadline when I turn 28. and the dates I’ve had? are not exactly for the long term thing.

and then today of all days….

i was out for lunch with my parents and 2 of my mom’s “tita’s” ….

and when they turned to me:

“si, Tina, wala pa bang boyfriend eto?”

and I just have to cringe at the question…Β  and smile… and say…

“wala pa eh….”

“oh, dont worry, you are still young!”

and right after that we went to a cooperative to withdraw some moolah.. and there we met an old family friend.. and she asked…

“arent you married yet?”

and i was like.. “uh…. no…”

“it’s okay, you are still young.”

and after some interview.. she told me…

“you know what…. the right person will come at the right time..” and at the back of my head, there was this voice saying.. listen to her.. I’m speaking through her… “God, will give it to you.. the perfect Gift… God will tell you, I know it. You will hear it, when He tells you.”

“But how? What if it’s just my mind saying…?”

“You would know it…. you know what I did? I fasted 21 days… and I heard him loud and clear as to who to marry. I know you would hear it..”

and then she laid her hands on me…and prayed…. ( i wont place the details.. but it was absolutely.. what I needed to hear).

to which I responded with tears of joy… because I know… at that time..I am grateful God answered my prayer.. with a blessing from another. πŸ™‚

P.S. I feel I found him na…..