Once upon a ladybug

Last July 13th, I found a ladybug beside me while on a cabride. It took me awhile to take a photo of it because it was way too “malikot”.

But, at least I finally got a shot at it.

  
I know ladybugs have a meaning and that they are messages from the beyond.

“The appearance of a ladybug heralds a time of luck in which our wishes begin to be fulfilled. Higher goals and new heights are now possible as worries dissipate. New happiness comes about. This insect cautions not to try too hard or go too fast to fulfill dreams but letting it just flow with its natural pace. This symbolizes not to be scared to live your own truth and to protect it and that it is yours to honor.”

It simply means to just let go and Let God. ❤️💕

Thank you for showing up in my life ladybug! 🐞 

Love,

K

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Prelude

The person you depend on the most may leave you, but God never will. 

And He shows His love by allowing me to meet gentle people. 

And this time… I am introduced to teenagers! I am humbled by my experience with the teenagers, they are going through so much and it is hard that the adults in their lives whom they depend on the most… Abandons them.

But, now they choose to forgive their parents because the parents did not know how… 

My small group was a gem! Even though there were two makulits hehe. But, the leader of the team is with me. I am also the Chief. I received good feedback and i felt i handled myself well despite my emotions peaking and diving but I stayed grounded and centered for the kids. I am guided, as always.

Service to God from now on will go first, then my family. 💕❤️  Anyway, in the end they will always be the one who will never abandon you. If one day, I will be blessed with someone who will love me truly, and who will never leave me.. I’d be honored. But, for now.. If this is how it would be with me.. I choose to be happy where God will take me. 

My 2 day workshop with the kids was a good prelude for the upcoming Holy Week. It made me look deeper inside and cleansed me from remaining pains and the current resentment building within me. But, I choose Love. *hugshugsGodandtheangels* 

Thank you for always enveloping me with your Love through the Kids (Shawn, Josh, thyra) amazing facilitators Bam and Ryan (who really inspired me in a different way), my awesome buddy Myra, my superduper loving sister Darlene and beloved ate Kates! Oh and there’s kulit Anot! 

I am deeply inspired by Sir Yet and Sir Jayvee who is generous enough to minister to the kids. I can feel their love and care. I am comforted that Davao is blessed with powerful people like Sir Yet and Jayvee who chooses to bless other people in our city in a large scale.

I am confident, Philippines is transforming 💕

We had an awesome dinner the past 2 days as well. 

And that one is another story…

Journey back to Love

There is one dance we have in this Earth and this is our dance in staying in Love, and our journey away from it. I have been in the flow, think of rivers and tides, getting pulled back by Fear and then moving forward in Love.

The description is poetic, but the moment that thing happens is the least moment I’d want to stay in. But, then it happens. And as it happens, all I know is to stay in the present and let the tears flow like liquid prayers.

The past few months, I find myself crying myself to sleep. And, I couldn’t figure out why and if I pinpoint the reasons, there could be five or six that I can think of. But, more so, I feel it is my soul aching. Aching to do what it wants. It is my soul desiring to love and be loved, to be seen and be appreciated. Even though, I never lacked that growing up, but there’s this threshold that my soul wants to enter, that I cannot reach alone.

Call me maarte or ma-drama, but that is what I want.

Tonight, I don’t want to lament or torment myself of how I am kind of a wee bit far from the place I want to be. There were fleeting moments I’d see glimpses of the possibilities of what lies ahead,and I am truly thankful to God for those moments.

Tonight, I just want to cast out my desires….

I want you to hold my hand, and maintain contact, to speak even without words but through the slightest of touch or if you are not around send me your waves of love even in times I am not loving at all.

I want you, gentle enough to understand me during my crazy moments and whose love will not waver at the slightest rock and movement of the boat.

I want you, not to give up. I want you not to dismiss my feelings but honor and appreciate them as it happens.

Yes, you won’t be perfect. And I will always always do my part to understand you.

Yes, you won’t be sending me the same love I would be giving you. I am not asking you to out-give me. I am simply asking you to be vulnerable enough to feel and join me in this journey.

I want you to hug me when I am hysterical. You don’t really need to spoil me by doing whatever it is that I want. All I want is a simple smile from you and that love that emanates from you telling me you would never abandon me or ask me to go away.

I also want you to be brave enough to tell me what you see in me that I do or say that hurts you or invalidates you. I want you to be transparent to me.

I don’t want you to be scared to tell me the truth.

I want you to TRUST me. I want you not to put up walls when I ask uncomfortable questions. I want you to understand me, that the reason I ask, was for me to know you more and understand you not because I am doubting you.

I want you to be safe in my arms as I hold your precious dreams and desires close to my heart.

I want to be your well of admiration, appreciation and love. I want you to relax in me.

I want you to know I am your ally.

I want to support you achieve your highest version of yourself as you support mine.

I want our partnership to grow with Christ in our midst.

I want to sleep in your arms.

I want you to choose Love not once, not twice but everyday even if it’s hard. But, on moments you fall hard, I will be there with you and be patient with you as you grow into the partnership with me.

The ride won’t be easy. It won’t be always unicorns and rainbows, even though I always paint you scenarios of that. We will go through walls and thorns and fight dragons if we have to. And just Trust in the our Love that over flows from one another.

I want you to love me not because you lack… but because you are so full of it. I have always loved you from an overflow, and when my love tank’s level goes low, I want you to recognize it as a temporary moment.

That, what I need from you is just your arms around me, telling me everything will be alright. You don’t need to have a solution every time.

I want to hear you say: Please stay with me. I don’t want to lose you. Not to be dependent on me or not because you are in need of me. But, because you know you don’t need me, but you want me to be with you.

I want you to never stop showing me how much I mean to you.

I want a love that rewards instead of punishes when one fails or stumbles.

I want you to know my weakness, and trust you enough that you won’t take advantage of it. As i honor yours.

I want you to know, that no matter what happens, you have me. I am your partner, your lover, your sister, your mother, your goddess, your queen, your Shekinah, who will be with you every step of the way and yet wise enough to give you space to grow on your own whenever necessary.

I want you to be comforted in the knowing that  I accept you just the way you are. Warts and all.

I know all good things take time. I am not asking the heavens to hurry up.

I just wanted to be in touch with my soul and be really clear of what I want to experience in the relationship I choose to be in. In the relationship that I deserve to be in.

Maybe, God is still preparing you. Or maybe I am not ready for you.

I will be here waiting for you.

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Of space captains and Angels

Here’s a wonderful reading from my favorite book of Marianne Williamson 🙂

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Our wounds have been brought forward, not to block the experience of love, but to serve it. It is in the forgiveness of our weaknesses that we are healed of them, and the tenderness of a forgiven heart is a tenderness that will ultimately heal the world.

Can the purpose of a relationship be to trigger our wounds? In a way, yes.. because that is how healing happens; darkness must be exposed before it can be transformed. It’s not a place where we can hide from our weaknesses, but rather where we can safely let them go. It takes strength of character to truly delve into the mystery of an intimate relationship.

Of Space Captains and Angels

“I came for you, I came for you, but you could not see me. I swam the seas, I traversed the coals, I died a thousand deaths for you. I found my way, I did, I did. But when I got there, you had fallen asleep. You had drunk their potions and I could not wake you. I got there in time but your eyes were closed.”

Oftentimes, we pray for something and then miss the miracle when it actually happens. Many have said. “I wish I could have a great love,” while blind to the fact that it was standing right in front of them.

Sometimes, love arrives as though it were a spaceship landing in the back yard. The captain comes out of the ship and says to us, “Hi! I’m here to beam you up! Come on! We’re going!

Yet so many times we reject him, saying, “Uh well, I cant just leave here so fast. Actually, I cant even believe you’re here. How long do I have to prepare my things?

And he says, “You have no time at all. Your entire life has been spent preparing. Now, we must go quickly. If you wait, your eyes will adjust and you will no longer see me. Ive just landed for a bit, to pick you up. You have an hour max. You can make further plans from the ship.

The captain sees that we are bewildered, but so is he. “Haven’t you been asking for this for years?” he asks.

Well, yes,” we say. “I have. But I guess I didn’t think you were coming…. I sort of made a life for myself here, in the meantime.

Not that much of one, judging from your prayers at night,” he tells us. “Let’s go, if you’re coming, I can’t wait forever.

And then we say, if we say it, what is ultimately the most tragic thing we will ever say, and that is, “No, thank you.”

No, I don’t choose the ride, even though I want it desperately. No, I don’t want to beam up now, even though its a living hell down here. No, I don’t choose the path of wild and radical and authentic love, even though I know I am dying without it. I think I’ll just settle for “good enough”.

Angels are on board those spaceships, appearing everywhere now, often in the guise of loved ones holding the torch that would light our way through darkness. On the other side of that darkness is the light in which dreams come true. But there are demons in that darkness, to be sure, and we can feel them. They almost paralyze us with fear. All those unloved parts of ourselves are there, ugly and twisted and ready to destroy. They live in the darkness, on the other side of which is paradise itself. Even though the only way to paradise is through the darkness – and even though the fire of the angel’s torch will burn the demons up, not us – we do not trust that. We lack faith. We are staunch and calcified in our refusal to choose love, and so we say to the angel, “No, you go ahead. I’ll stay here.

The angel looks at us in disbelief; the refusal of ecstasy is unknown to heaven. The space captain can scarcely believe his ears, but NONINTERFERENCE IN AND RESPECT FOR THE CHOICES OF ANOTHER HUMAN BEING (free will), is a must on the enlightened path. Not that you can force anyone onto a spaceship anyway. One only rides on the wings of an angel if one is seriously committed to the experience of heaven. The lure of hell is so real here.

Still, as the ship takes off, the captain looks at the angel on board and notices that there are tiny sparkling rivers of water, falling from her eyes.

Back at the headquarters, the angel reports to higher-ups.

He chose not to go“.

The superior is silent, witnessing the angel’s pain. The angel continues. “I can hardly believe it. He chose not to go.

Do you think he understands the consequences?” asks the superior.

I don’t know.” says the angel.”I think he thinks that staying there is the more responsible thing to do.

Responsible… to whom? To what?

I dont know. Its strange. He’s not ecstatically happy there, but he thinks it’s his duty to stay. He feel its an adult situation and he lives in fear that he is not one.

Yes, of course. We’ll weve seen this before. They choose psychology over poetry. We keep trying to evacuate that realm before the storm hits, but people refuse evacuation.

Yes

You prayed for him, of course.

oh, yes. with all my heart.

Well. Job well done. Sorry if your heart was a little bruised on this mission. It’s one of the risks, you know. It can happen, of course.

of course.

Still, they’re touching creatures.Contentious but touching.

Yes.

The angel was trained for love, she was disciplined for love, but her tears still flowed.

You’re excused. You may go.

As the angel turned around to weep, her superior called her back.

I say one thing…. Do remember – you’ll see him again someday.

Will I really master? Will I really?

Of course you will. You must cling to your own faith at times like these. How else can you convince them of theirs, if you don’t?

FOR MANY OF US, its not that we don’t want the spaceship to come and get us, so much as we are completely taken aback by its form. We expect angels to have a different look. We don’t recognize a gift from heaven, and how could we, when we have not truly believed that heaven exists? We don’t quite compute what has occurred until often it’s too late.

We didn’t think this love would be human. We’re thrown off by his/her profession, or his/her freckles and warts, or his/her past. We didn’t expect love to awaken our biggest fears and insecurities and doubts. We thought it would bring more immediate comfort. And so we wanted it, but we didn’t. When you’ve lived in a dungeon for a very long time, the light, when you see it, actually hurts your eyes.

The arrival of a soulful love often comes quickly, like that spaceship in the yard. There is little time to prepare before the flight takes off, just a window of opportunity, a cresting wave and then its over. There will be little time to pack one’s bags, so its best to travel lightly through life. There will be people you know you should have said good-bye to long ago. We are living in the end times. New beginnings are upon us now.

We cannot burst through the old earth’s atmosphere without another at our side. It takes two to make a spaceship. We can;t generate the power to fuel the ship until we download the forces that only love can burn off. We must be fearless, as only love can make us fearless. We must be tender, as only love can make us tender. We must be fierce, as only love can make us fierce.

How weak we are when we are not yet ready to let love rip us open.

Is this thought – that a woman’s love cannot transform a man, that a man’s love cannot transform a woman – really to be heralded as some kind of wisdom? It is not wisdom. It is a poisonous emotional pesticide that kills the fruits of love. It is a denial of the deeper regions of the heart, a resistance to the experience of freedom.

The miracle of love is expressed through other people. When a beloved is sent from God – and no one can tell you if they are, but the spirit within you – then they do hold the key to your soul’s liberation. God has given it to them. They contain, in every touch and sigh, the information you need, the miraculous power to alchemize your weakness and turn them into strengths, to dry your tears and turn them into genius, to release your chains and set you free to be your passionate self at last.

Woe to the one who does not yet know enough to say a deep and robust ” Yes” to such love, to bow before its truth, to be humble before its power, to surrender to the gales of wind that storm through lovestruck hearts.

How tragic it is when we are too arrogant to defer to love, to put all small considerations and say, “I am going there.” How stupid it is to say no to the power of God’s loving choice for us. How sad it is to think so little of ourselves that we cannot believe that he or she stands before us, sent by God, is an angel come to give us wings. We have so little awe these days before the mysteries of the universe.

Yet if we are in the habit of denying God, then of course we deny His angels, too. And they hold, like pietas, the bodies of our unchosen loves. Angels weep – because their hears are open – and I think God weeps as well to see such joy denied. And you continue to pray for what you’ve already received, and will one day realize that what you let fly by was a miracle intended to heal you. You might even say so, but by then.. it will probably be too late.

Angels only come to pick up passengers, to fly away with them to paradise. Everything else is so ultimately silly and everything else is so sad. There is one more thing to know about the angel who came for you. The angel who came to fly you to paradise in reality had only one wing. She needed the angel in you to come forth, to be to her what she was willing to be to you. Thus your need for, your dance, your flight with each other.tumblr_lrjlmuyeYT1qz72oio1_500

Together, you would have had one set of wings.

Next time she comes – whoever she is – perhaps you will not deny her. Next time she comes, be humble before God. Next time she comes, admit your pain. Next time she comes, come forth yourself. Next time she comes, let go your resistance. Next time she comes, be brave.

I dont know if we can hold onto this, you said.

Why couldn’t we? I asked. I could see you slipping back and it scared me.

We can’t be this way, and stay responsible. We cant be this way.. and I dont know.. I just dont think we cant be this way.

Then you can’t. But I can. And then I swam away.

Its hard to show for someone else when you don’t know how to show up for yourself. how can you give of yourself when you don’t really think you’re anything worth giving? Sometimes we block the flow when we think that we personally have nothing to give.

What love does if it is allowed to, is to combine people’s energies in ways that lift their lives to a mode of divine right order, where new ideas, new possibilities, and new opportunities for growth emanate directly from the heart of God. Our job is not to abort the process.

The challenge of our generation is to move from me to we. That is the maturity we assume when we wish to learn to love each other from a healed and holy place. Narcissistic people are lonely. Narcissistic people misunderstand independence, often mistaking the commitment to aloness for psychological health.

We were taught to go after things that we could control. Love, of course, drives you, and not the other way around. Most of us both, men and women, are terrified of merging our hearts with another. We say were not, but we are. Even when we are in relationships, we avoid their mystical power. We turn lovers into roommates, butlers or maids. We avoid the real light and were afraid it will swallow us up. And that’s because it would, and it does! Overwhelming our sense of separateness is in fact love;s spiritual purpose. A career, you can control. Love, you can’t. Terrifying news that, but wonderful once you get the hang of it.

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Cheerful bouquets sounds so Spring-ish!

and, well yesterday … or was it today? that it’s the Day 1 of Spring!!! or to some they celebrate what they call Spring Equinox or Ostara!!! 🙂

And well with that a lot of Spring Cleaning has come to surface. and its best to just carry on and do the cleaning yourself, whether it be a certain home space, physical, or emotional and spiritual baggage in stored.

It was supposed to be a portosawa date with my Boo today, but he is well feeling under the weather the past few days. But, he was very thoughtful enough to spend our day listening to Ninang on the radio, to which she greeted us twice!!! Oh ha? Both of us felt very elated! Thanks Ninang!!! (and i have to commend Boo’s effort to be on time, as he cooked the crabs fast and with a warning he said: “Lagot kayo ni Ninang pag di masarap ang crabs!) Boo talaga! Those are my fun memories with Boo.

To my Boo, I hope you get a good rest tonight, I know the past few days, I’ve been quiet close to impossible, appearing with my demands (thanks for being extra patient on this). When I could just instead love and support your wishes and desires. Sawree!

But, I would really miss the morning ritual with you…. *sigh* Angels angels make me sleep till 6am or 7am… dont wake me up na super early…. T_T

And below is the get Spring Started List from Vineyard Vines. Woot woot!!!

tumblr_n2qx2v1yyC1qzv3vjo1_500I love Spring, for the reason that flowers are blooming! And it sounds like a perfect fun day to go wear your sundress, riding a bicycle with flowers on your basket, as you sing merrily…… huwaaaaa. If Boo is nearby, and we live in  a country-setting, I’d prolly go visit him all the time with my bicycle, and bring him his favorite comfort foods and some herbs (to which he would cringe) and lots of citrus… so he would be well. { it’s good to dream now and then!!!}

Anyhow, I just wish to greet everybody… Happy Spring!!!!! {kahit walang Spring sa Pinas, nyahahhahaha} and grateful to God for this awesome season!! 🙂

 

Pure Bliss 2014

All my intentions last 2013 …. came true!!!!!

and my 2014 was a smooth transition… well more than smooth.. it was coupled with warm hearts and love. *smiles*

The year started well!

And well it’s time for my annual ritual of setting this year’s theme…… and it’s Pure Bliss 2014!!

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This year… I choose to nurture and cherish what God gave me …. infused with heavenly warmth….

I choose to love & respect myself more…

I choose to live  full out and be authentic….I choose to reach out to more people…

I choose to let go of things that does not serve me….

I choose to harvest millions and more!!! *excited*

I choose for this year to have many adventures and cherished-moments with my loved ones…. and boo  *smiles*

I choose to make my life a masterpiece to inspire people that they too can create a meaningful and well loved life….

I choose to make more healthy choices, be it in rest and in eating well… and keeping my body fit!

I choose to travel and explore more,,… and being more open by staying out of my box…. creating a lot of loving firsts..

I choose to paint my year with a dash of spontaneity, fun, laughter, filled with gratitude, generous, care-free moments!

I choose to be guided by God all the time, with the support of the angels to do my life’s purpose and be a child of Light.

I choose to be strong and whole, courageous and confident, capable and successful, and free!!!

I choose to celebrate more with my loved ones 🙂 I choose to be more fun-loving, beautiful, and wise Maria, inspiring many Maria’s to create a fabulous life!

I choose to make positive changes to help/support the transformation of Philippines.

I choose to bring out the child-like qualities in me this year… being more free each day…

I choose to BE-ing more… being love, joyful, excited, compassionate, vibrant,enchanting, creative, beautiful, elegant, classy, more present and aware and evolved….

I choose to pay more attention to the signs and symbols and thereby always being at the right place at the perfect time… with the right people…..

I choose to surround myself with like-minded people. Meeting more people with the same vision and mission in life. I choose to meet more people I admire in transforming our world.

I choose to be a good daughter, caring sister, trusted friend, generous business partner and a loving partner to my boo …

I choose to keep my passion and embracing each day like it’s my first day!!

I choose to explore new things that will support me in the future and treasuring every journey i embark on…

I choose to travel with my boo.. *blushes*

I choose to swirl my life with colors of happiness, trust, faith, love, magical, enchanted moments…..

I choose to experience and enjoy God’s blessings… and being a blessing..This year, I choose to celebrate God’s abundance, more enchanted moments with my boo, more laughter and fun-times with my friends and family, and yes ….. more magical kisses please….

all of this…. in God’s glory… and just like Heaven….. So be it and So it is…..

WILD & Awesome 2013

and indeed it was a W.I.L.D… one *insert song Wild One ft. Sia*

in case one needs a refresher… I coined WILD as “wonderfully, interesting, love filled days” and indeed my 2013 was filled with that!
Wonderfully interesting by pushing our Liwanag World Festival last February 2013 and by late July, early August my love filled days started and it’s been brewin ever since up to now…. and my heart is desiring for a forever here. [insert song: First Day of Forever] *may the love angels guide us* Yes, there’s something sweet in that desire. Right, boo?

Everyone I know was going through a whole lot of ups & downs. In fact, this year is one tough year for everyone. It was a year of “losses” – be it personally, financially, emotionally, physically…….. I lost a good close friend of mine… Yan2x…. but I know he will always be remembered in my heart. And a lot of my good friends and loved ones lost someone who are close to their hearts too. Also the calamities that devastated parts of our country was equally depressing. However, let this all be not for naught but always cherish and remember our loved ones. Remember our good times with them…because they are never gone… they will always live in our hearts. Meantime, may it teach us to be more present with one another and to always give our all…. When it comes to relationships. Take chances that are there for the taking because we never know what would happen next…… and say the words you would want your loved ones to hear….. because today can be the last day or the first day of your life….. The year was filled with expose as well as the spotlight shifts to our corrupt government officials. *insert explicit words here* It was in fact a year of drama or turmoil if you choose to suffer that long, but at the bright side of everything … is that sometimes… some things needs to fall apart so we can choose the pieces we want to stay in our life…..

This year, I had to go through bouts of confusion in matters of career, because I was confused with all the opportunities unfolding to the point of “I don’t want to move” or “I don’t know what to do”. But, I did try new ventures and found out it was more of an added skill to what I can do one day to support me for a larger purpose which is to be of service to the Filipinos and ultimately the humankind. By spreading LOVE and in more tangible terms… giving each one sustainable support and empowering them to go find their own path.  I even thought of moving out from home… but felt it wasn’t the right time. Yet.

To everyone who braved the year 2013… I congratulate you! Two more challenging years up ahead and we are well on our way to adjusting to the thinning veil of materialism and externals versus valuing what truly matters most to each and every one of us. And that is: what we feel beyond the physical… love, relationships, & spirituality. Just hold on to what matters most and all will not be lost. J Make sure you pick up the worthy ones! Pass up good, wait for great! If you found yourself something great…. Hold onto that and fight for your true heart’s desires….. they don’t usually come around for a second time! 🙂

This year, I’ve experienced various individuals who tested my patience. More like, I’ve encountered people I would rather not deal with in matters of business affairs and personal encounters. Also, betrayal of trust was one issue I tackled, however God always spares me and keeps me from harm while at the same time able to teach me a lesson. I also encountered my bitchy self twice this year. And I know, I ought to trust my intuition more. And now, I know when to stay or leave without prolonging the agony. Ive also learned how to forgive myself for making stoopid mistakes now and then. *face palm*

But then, it was good that on February, I did a spring cleaning of my heart….. Forgiving and letting go of past hurts and angers…. In order to bring in love again… and he arrived on an August day… like a gentle koala with his eucalyptus… and he was just right before my eyes pala… I just have to open my eyes…. [insert song: open your eyes to love]

This year was also wedding-filled!! 7 weddings! But only managed to join the 5 weddings. My closet is filled with dresses na! I was secondary sponsor on 2 weddings, one I was the candle, and another towel. To all the newly married couples for the year 2013… I wish you all the best and may you inspire more people to love and cherish their chosen ones!  and mind you, they were all couples and partnerships that I admire because each has their own spark and uniqueness and they inspire me.

[shout outs to: Rey & Karyl (Urdaneta) – you are a young couple, however I see the love and commitment that is rare sa age nyo… it inspires me!, Kuya Noli & Ate Tere (Batangas) – ive seen you together 4 years ago and we thought you were just friends! Mag boyfriend pala eh!!, Kuya Jaime & Ate Beth (Tagum – may 26) – huwaaa your goal while you were under me Ate Beth was to plan your wedding… you have no idea how your partnership and devotion to Kuya Jaime inspires me.  Meynard & Fran(june 8) – when I heard your love story… I was deeply touched and moved. Kuya Eli and Ate Precious(july 20) – your story is similar to mine.. so that’s why I understood what you guys had to go through… and look at you all pregnant and happy already! Bords &Regine – you are a cute couple! best wishes!!  Cris and Ate Jill – Huwaaaaa!! You’ve seen me both in my brokenness and happiness…. And it is with your partnership that inspires me to also not give up and to keep opening my eyes….]

Despite everything in 2013, I am super grateful for one gift God gave me. 🙂 He is a gift because; I love who I am becoming because of him. And I know it to be true. I know he wouldn’t like it if I mention his name here…. But you know who you are sweetheart! To us, the challenge is… the gift of patience, anticipation, and building the foundation to a lasting worthy partnership…. I don’t know where it will take us… but I’ll be holding you in my heart as you will hold me in yours…. It won’t be hearts and flowers or rosy all the time…. But always remember, if there’s a fall out…. that won’t change my love and respect to you. Kisses  hugstight

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This year for BDJ’s checklist: Here’s what I managed to cross off:

*Allow yourself to make mistakes

*Be eco-conscious

*Build your own blog/website – I opened a new theme this year….. @ tumblr

*Buy flowers for your mother – during her birthday! She loves flowers!!

*Clean your playlist – I did!! Whoopeee!

*Dance in the pouring rain – who doesn’t love to be childlike every now and then?

*Drink more water and less soda – check!! Altho I did drink more soda this year than last year

*Eat more fruits and less sweets – yup! Less chocolates and cakes this year!

*Face your greatest fear – JUMP!!! Jumping off the Hayahay rock! Believe me that wasn’t just a fear…. It’s trauma that I overcame from that jump!

*Get your fortune told – Uhmm does pulse reading count?

*Give compliments – Yup!!!

*Google yourself – I have sooo much digital trail … I plan to take them off one by one one day!!

*Jump off a high cliff into the ocean – well, it wasn’t a high cliff… it was just a short jump.. but that was a big deal for me *refer to greatest fear*

*Laugh your heart out

*Learn a new song and dance – chicken dance!! Whoops kiri whoops!!

*Learn a new sport – Kayak!!!
*Learn how to drive – more like polishing my driving skills. More confident now. Parking na lang!

*Learn how to take criticisms – *refer to my post HERE

*Learn to forgive yourself and others

*Learn to say No

*Let go of your past – supercheck!

*Make a baby laugh – haha all the time!

*Make someone a good cup of coffee – yup!!

*Own a pet and take good care of it – Chichay!!! *here* (October)

*Plant a tree – @ Maa Watershed offsetting our LWF carbon footprint (August)

*Play a game of poker with your friends and bluff a hand – new year 2013 with my childhood friends!

*Say “I Love You” to someone special – Bootsulit!  *kiss*

*Smile at 100 strangers

*Sort your wardrobe

*Take a holiday trip with your Best Friend! – Bee! But it was more of business pleasure? But well it was really pleasure naman! Haha (August)

*Throw a huge party with your cousins – Bridal Shower (October)

*Update your resume

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2013 Firsts:

*press conferences

*my first PPA meeting (Potential Problem Analysis)

*ex-deal negotiations

*spirit keeper of Happy Team Campaign (politics)

*meeting the Filipino Chinese businessmen here in Dabaw

*First Book reading of I am Maria!

*filing a police report

*got a license from IC

*organized a bridal shower for my cousin

Movies on-screen:

*Life Of Pi, Les Miserables, White House Down, 4 Sisters and a Wedding, Girl, Boy, Bakla, Tomboy

Memorable Events:

*Liwanag World Festival 2013 preparation and days

*Lunch with Joey Ayala at the Adventurer’s abode, Dinner at Kublai’s home! (spontaneous!)

*MISSION Reunion @ Davao

*My Birthday Celebration (spontaneous!) everyone just went sa bahay! Huwaaa everyone that mattered to me. We watched a movie till sawa!!! It was just casual and chill

*Hosted THE RSA with a bang! Huwaaaaa! I did it well and a lot of people congratulated me whoopee I don’t think I want to do it again though. Nyahahaha. Scared the wits out of me!

*Ikepono Gathering (April – Davao)

*meeting Ate Claire after a year sa Leap! J

*attending Milo’s concert! A popular indie European musician, who is the cousin of Ate Maya.

*meeting Justin Garrido of Socialproject.ph

*Bowling with Ikepono peeps!

*Seeing Boses and the cast @ Cinematheque

*with Kath and her hubby, gift giving @ Malinaw Elementary School

*met ate Meg!!

*Blue moon date with Boo

*joined Million March (peaceful way) – singing

*Kuya Atho arrives

*huge waves @ Hayahay!!!

*BBQ Party – convergence with the Lightworkers

*Ate Au’s Birthday (Paradise in the morning, with Dr. Vic’s talk, plus dinner @ Sarung Banggi).

*Movie date: Harry Potter with Boo

*Boo & Trish episode so cute!

*Full moon Lunar Party @ Ilawod House Warming

*Kapampangan Ilokano talk with Boo

*DXN’s 14th Anniversary!

*Rainbow in Club Med, Cherating Beach (Nov. 19)

*DXN’s 20th Anniversary!

*days and nights with Boo

Travel:

*Lake Agco, Hayahay (4), Cebu, Bohol, Tagum, Paradise Island (2), Sea Grass (1), Padada (2), Marbel (3), Eden Nature (1), Manila (4), Baguio (1), Malaysia (1), Bangkok (1),

Workshops:

I conducted/facilitated:

Discovery Workshop Cebu, Heart Quest 4(5 sessions),

I staffed:

Ikepono (March Davao), Ikepono (April / Manila), Discovery (level1), Level 2 Breakthrough (2)

I attended:

BOP, PCTC, Wealth Management Forum, Wealth Workshop with Russ, Surrender to Love, The Shift, Club Med Cherating International Seminar (DXN)